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been clicking in during my and Jay’s conversation but I was too caught in his words to even care. But enough was enough. I wasn’t interested in anything her jinx ass had to say, but me answering was the only way she’d stop bothering me.
    â€œYes, Ma, damn. What’s up?” Fumbling through my drawers for a cute panty set, I snatched out a hot pink lace bra and matching thong, running into the bathroom to do a quick ho wash up.
    â€œOh, sweet Jesus, you’re okay! Almighty Father, you do work miracles. I’m truly sorry I ever doubted you.” My mother started in with talking to the God who’d abandoned me along with my father’s side of the family.
    â€œHello, Shawntay. I’m kinda busy, what’s up?” Rolling my eyes to the back of my head, I couldn’t stand hearing her play the sanctified role. Putting the phone on speaker, I set the phone down onto the bathroom sink, running the water to soap up my rag.
    â€œI’m just glad you’re okay. I don’t rest at all with you dancing at the bar. I know a pretty girl like yourself has made enough money to quit. Maybe you can go back to school for art. You were always running around the house drawing pictures.”
    â€œI know this is a joke. You can’t be serious. The only reason I was drawing pictures is ’cause the school therapist said it was the best way to get my feelings out ’cause you were too busy to deal with my ‘ugly, frog-looking ass.’” I repeated the harsh words I heard her call me as a child. In my world there weren’t second chances, just consequences. I’d seen that with Dazz. “Don’t come judging me now when you made me this way.” Rubbing the rag back, forth, then around my vagina, I even made sure my asshole was fresh and clean just in case the white boy was one of those kink freaks.
    â€œI’m sorry, Shannon. But the Lord has forgiven me for my sins so I can’t keep dwelling on the past. Please just take a step at seeing the new me. I know I haven’t always been the best mother or role model but people do change.” My mother was barking up the wrong tree.
    â€œMe and God ain’t cool, Ma.” I laughed like she should’ve known. “You know how many nights I prayed for Him to feed us? To keep your punk-ass boyfriend’s hands out of my panties? I used to hold my pee all day knowing he’d be creeping around with his pudgy fingers so I’d piss on him in attempts to keep him away. At five I was learning how to fend for myself ’cause you were too busy snorting lines. But you want me to let the past go? And I ain’t even about to start no pity party about what went down at my grandmother’s house. Let’s just say I ain’t never fit nowhere I done been at in all my life.” Feeling my emotions starting to pour over, I had to hurry up and dry my hands to end the call. Digging up my past only meant trouble; and tonight with Jay I was anxious to get into something new. Finally a paid businessman was after Butter. Shawntay wasn’t gonna have my mind too twisted to perform.
    â€œYour soul is gonna be damned, Shannon, if you don’t get right with your Lord. I don’t want you to keep living how I lived ’cause that ain’t gonna get you nowhere but to the grave.”
    â€œIt’s been damned since conception, bitch!” Finally able to hang up the phone, I’d had enough of the counterfeit Christian. How dare she judge me? Wasn’t that a sin within itself? I didn’t feel like having Shawntay ruin my night any longer. Going through my phone to the settings, I blocked her number so she wouldn’t be able to get in contact with me until I felt like being bothered again. It was the next best thing next to having T-Mobile change my number. I’d given Shawntay all of my childhood years to ruin; for the rest of my life she’d have to take a back