love is being brought into disrepute, yes, Iâm afraid I do.â
Of course Mother goes ballistic. Back in her own rooms she shouts and curses and paces and guess what, she blames it all on me. Since she was demoted from Aphrodite Urania to Aphrodite Pandemos she has lived in fear of being demoted further, possibly ending up having to move down from the summit like I did. Personally I donât think that would be so bad because then we could hang out more but Mother just hates the idea.
I have been about to go up to her and maybe put my arm around her, comfort her a bit but she turns and gives me this really mean sea-green look.
âWhy did you have to go and get her together with that Townsend person, eh? Surely you could see that relationship had no future?â
âThatâs so unfair.â I back away. âYou didnât say anything against it at the time. In fact you told me just to get on with it.â
âThatâs called
delegating
, Eros. Youâre supposed to be able to handle such things by yourself, but oh no, someoneâs become sloppy, careless, shooting off his arrows blindly in every direction with no thought about even basic compatibility or suitability.â
âThatâs so unfair.â
âOh do stop saying that.â
âYou stop being unfair,â I say, but so quietly that she canât hear. âAnyway,â I say louder now, âIâm not meant to think about those things: Iâm just a boy.â
Mother sinks down on her bed. She seems too tired even to rant. Instead she sighs; I hate it when she sighs.
âOh Eros, youâre always just a boy.â
âAnd thatâs my fault? Anyway, youâre supposed to be in charge of strategy.â But even as I protest I know sheâs right to be pissed at me. My heart just hasnât been in the job lately.
Truth is, Iâm bored. So obviously it shows in the results. You should see my pending tray: man, it is stacked high. But think about it from my perspective. I work really hard getting people paired off; I mean I could just hang out with my friends and have a nice time but no, I work. And it feels thankless. I shoot â the person lights up as if theyâve just had a hundred-volt light bulb shoved up their arse.
She
loses weight.
He
walks around saying heâs finally realised whatâs important in life. They love each other like no oneâs ever loved before and next time I look theyâve cocked up.
âYouâre right,â Mother says suddenly. âI shouldnât blame you. You do whatâs in your nature. But Erosâ â she puts her hand out so I go over and take it â âEros, Iâm terribly afraid that theyâll demote me. Iâm telling you, I couldnât go through that, not again.â
Everyone thinks Motherâs so strong but she isnât really. Actually, she hasnât been the same since that business with Adonis. She needs someone to lean on. Iâd like that someone to be me but I know Iâm not enough. I pat her hand.
âThere there,â I say. âIt might not be that bad.â
She snatches her hand away from mine.
âWhat do you mean it might not be that bad?â Her eyes have turned granite, yielding nothing. It scares me when she goes blank on me like we were strangers, as if Iâm nothing to her. And she starts to list all the stuff that would follow from demotion: loss of status and power, laughing stock, unbearable humiliation, the satisfaction given to Athene, not to mention Hera. She finishes off with, âAnd there would be no more family dinners for you, do you hear?â
That really got to me. You might ask why. Guys my age donât usually go out of their way to spend time with the olds. But itâs different for me. Being up here, having dinner with Mother and Grandpa and the others, sitting on those shit-hard gold thrones means youâre someone, that you
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