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Authors: Melyssa Winchester
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everyone else in my life and leave?
“See. Now you’re getting it. I think you’re doing it because you love her, but you’re also afraid she’s gonna disappear. I know its fucked hearing me say it, but you can’t let that be a reason for doing something that huge.”
He’s right . If I’m going to see this through the way I want to, I can’t let there be any reason for it other than the way I feel about Belle. She’d be able to see right through it the same way she can see through me.
“If that’s what you think why’d you ask if I slept with her?”
“Progression?” he answers back quickly before grinning again. “Nah, I asked because I’m a nosy fucker and I wanted to see if you two had taken the plunge yet.”
This is the Dillon I expect. The one answering me, giving me things to think about, it’s not his style. Cracking jokes, wanting to be a nosy jerk, this is why I opened up to him in the first place, but there’s no denying he’s given me a whole lot more than jokes to think about.
Like maybe for the first time since I got with Belle last year, I need to slam on the brakes before that fear he thinks I have really does become a reality and she disappears.
Belle
I’ve never been so happy for a weekend in my life.
So much has happened this week that I actually thought about staying home yesterday just to give myself time to process it.
All of the good I’ve been doing with Isaac, being what I think is his first real friend, getting him to open up to me, even hanging out with him in between classes, it all finally came to a head Wednesday after class. I still don’t know what to do with everything that happened.
The week started off great. Sure the guys in class, the ones I finally learned were named Bryan and Randy, said stuff on Monday morning, but by Wednesday they hadn’t so much as looked in my general direction, let alone harassed Isaac so I let myself enjoy the calm.
What a stupid move.
Kayden’s right. I am naïve about the world. He didn’t say it in a bad way, but it doesn’t change the fact that he’s right. I should have known that just like high school, those two days of peace were the calm before the storm.
Going the whole class without so much as a whispered bad wor d, I took Isaac’s hand in mine and walked from class confident. That’s when everything changed and why right now, more than any other time, I need to see Kayden.
~*~*~
“Check it out, Bry. The little mute moves fast. They’re already holding hands.”
Ignoring the chill I get the minute I hear the first meathead talk, his words reminding me a lot of Tim before him, I keep walking even though I can tell with the way he’s slowed down that Isaac is having a harder time ignoring it.
“Ignore them.” I lean in and whisper.
When he nods his head and we keep wa lking, the voices get louder until I swear I can feel their breath on the back of my neck.
“What’s the hurry princess? Are you too good to stop and talk to us?”
I’ve come such a long way over the last few months. I can talk a lot more freely now, but I’m still not where I want to be. I still have moments where the pressure to speak is so heavy that it blocks me from doing it at all.
This is one of those moments. As much as I wan t to turn and tell this guy exactly what I think of him, I’m completely frozen. My throat is constricted, the words locked deep inside me.
Isaac’s hand has mine in a death grip and when I look up, if the grip wasn’t enough to worry me, the look in his eyes does it for sure. It’s a look that’s familiar. The same look Kayden wears when he’s pissed off and trying to contain it.
This is a side of the quiet boy I sit beside that I’ve never seen before, but one that despite not liking him being that way, I understand. I’ve seen it happen with other kids like me.
Sometimes, especially with boys it seems, there’s a bit of an unexplaine d violent streak that can happen. I
“See. Now you’re getting it. I think you’re doing it because you love her, but you’re also afraid she’s gonna disappear. I know its fucked hearing me say it, but you can’t let that be a reason for doing something that huge.”
He’s right . If I’m going to see this through the way I want to, I can’t let there be any reason for it other than the way I feel about Belle. She’d be able to see right through it the same way she can see through me.
“If that’s what you think why’d you ask if I slept with her?”
“Progression?” he answers back quickly before grinning again. “Nah, I asked because I’m a nosy fucker and I wanted to see if you two had taken the plunge yet.”
This is the Dillon I expect. The one answering me, giving me things to think about, it’s not his style. Cracking jokes, wanting to be a nosy jerk, this is why I opened up to him in the first place, but there’s no denying he’s given me a whole lot more than jokes to think about.
Like maybe for the first time since I got with Belle last year, I need to slam on the brakes before that fear he thinks I have really does become a reality and she disappears.
Belle
I’ve never been so happy for a weekend in my life.
So much has happened this week that I actually thought about staying home yesterday just to give myself time to process it.
All of the good I’ve been doing with Isaac, being what I think is his first real friend, getting him to open up to me, even hanging out with him in between classes, it all finally came to a head Wednesday after class. I still don’t know what to do with everything that happened.
The week started off great. Sure the guys in class, the ones I finally learned were named Bryan and Randy, said stuff on Monday morning, but by Wednesday they hadn’t so much as looked in my general direction, let alone harassed Isaac so I let myself enjoy the calm.
What a stupid move.
Kayden’s right. I am naïve about the world. He didn’t say it in a bad way, but it doesn’t change the fact that he’s right. I should have known that just like high school, those two days of peace were the calm before the storm.
Going the whole class without so much as a whispered bad wor d, I took Isaac’s hand in mine and walked from class confident. That’s when everything changed and why right now, more than any other time, I need to see Kayden.
~*~*~
“Check it out, Bry. The little mute moves fast. They’re already holding hands.”
Ignoring the chill I get the minute I hear the first meathead talk, his words reminding me a lot of Tim before him, I keep walking even though I can tell with the way he’s slowed down that Isaac is having a harder time ignoring it.
“Ignore them.” I lean in and whisper.
When he nods his head and we keep wa lking, the voices get louder until I swear I can feel their breath on the back of my neck.
“What’s the hurry princess? Are you too good to stop and talk to us?”
I’ve come such a long way over the last few months. I can talk a lot more freely now, but I’m still not where I want to be. I still have moments where the pressure to speak is so heavy that it blocks me from doing it at all.
This is one of those moments. As much as I wan t to turn and tell this guy exactly what I think of him, I’m completely frozen. My throat is constricted, the words locked deep inside me.
Isaac’s hand has mine in a death grip and when I look up, if the grip wasn’t enough to worry me, the look in his eyes does it for sure. It’s a look that’s familiar. The same look Kayden wears when he’s pissed off and trying to contain it.
This is a side of the quiet boy I sit beside that I’ve never seen before, but one that despite not liking him being that way, I understand. I’ve seen it happen with other kids like me.
Sometimes, especially with boys it seems, there’s a bit of an unexplaine d violent streak that can happen. I
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