pining, and quite possibly broken, heart?”
That had her grinning. “No. Not at all. There is no one that ever was more than someone
to ease a biological ache. The only person that I’m leaving behind is my
brother.” She heard the sadness in her own voice and added, “He’s an admiral in
the Fleet. He’s fought many wars but has pulled back from only one as well.
Odd, don’t you think?”
“ Not really. We can’t win them
all, and it takes a wise and strong leader to know when the battle’s lost even
before the first shot is fired. To get to positions such as mine, or his, you
have to prove you are willing to not only commit, but also to make the hardest
choice of all. To retreat until a better day comes that favors you over your
opponent.”
“ It’s eerie how much like Petr you
sound,” she blurted. “I like it.” She lay her head back on his shoulder and asked ,“ And you have told me that
there is no one home waiting for you. Do you have family? Sisters,
brothers, mother, father?”
“ No, there is no one,” he said
quietly. “My mother died during an outbreak of some sort when I was barely old
enough to move under my own power. My father was in the Armada, and died in
battle when I was in training as a young man. Could barely shave, yet I’d lost
everyone I considered mine. Bracken was there to get me through the loss of my
father. For that, I can never repay him.”
“ Heavens, I’m so sorry, Fintan .” She caught her lip between her teeth. “That’s a
fear that I think everyone with a spouse in the services has, the fear of
losing them.”
“ True,” he agreed. “But that’s a
depressing topic, and one I think we should avoid for the moment. I believe
it’s my turn to ask a question, so I think I’ll ask something a little harder.
What is your favorite part of a sexual relationship?”
“Hmm, that is a very hard
question.” As strange as it was, Adira wasn’t shocked
by his inquiry. If anyone had the right to ask her that question, it certainly
was him. Adira closed her eyes and thought about it
for a moment. “Learning. Yes, I know that’s a strange
thing to say is one of my favorite parts, but there it is. Learning
about myself, about my partner.” Although there were things she hadn’t
been able to experience as of yet. “Although, honestly?” She pulled back so she
could look at him. “I haven’t experienced what I’ve needed as of yet. I haven’t found someone that I could give all of my
trust to and allow him to ensure our mutual satisfaction.”
“ Trust is very important,
especially the more adventurous you get. The more you test the limits, push the
boundaries and explore, the more trust is required between partners. You need
to know that, no matter what happens, your partner’s first thought is always on
you and your pleasure.”
She didn’t say anything for a
time, but finally she nodded. “I trust you.” Those three words hadn’t been
spoken by her before to a male, not when it came to sex. She trusted her
brother, but this was physical trust, sexual trust that she gave to Fintan .
He looked stunned for a moment, then a softer, heated look slid over his face. Cupping her
cheek, he leaned in to press a kiss to her lips. “I trust you as well, Adira . More than you’ll ever fully know,” he said, and
kissed her again.
“ Good.” She brushed her nose to
his and nodded. “In a relationship we must have trust, right? If we aren’t able
to fully trust each other, then we can’t very well be able to trust ourselves. Right?”
Fin
nodded. “ Absolutely. You have to trust so you can
give fully of yourself, and so you can also receive everything your partner has
to offer. Without it, it’s shallow and empty. Which really
makes for a rather awkward and meaningless endeavor. ” Stroking a finger
down her cheek, he pulled her head back to his shoulder when he settled into
place once more. “Next question,” he said to her.
“ Do you have a
That had her grinning. “No. Not at all. There is no one that ever was more than someone
to ease a biological ache. The only person that I’m leaving behind is my
brother.” She heard the sadness in her own voice and added, “He’s an admiral in
the Fleet. He’s fought many wars but has pulled back from only one as well.
Odd, don’t you think?”
“ Not really. We can’t win them
all, and it takes a wise and strong leader to know when the battle’s lost even
before the first shot is fired. To get to positions such as mine, or his, you
have to prove you are willing to not only commit, but also to make the hardest
choice of all. To retreat until a better day comes that favors you over your
opponent.”
“ It’s eerie how much like Petr you
sound,” she blurted. “I like it.” She lay her head back on his shoulder and asked ,“ And you have told me that
there is no one home waiting for you. Do you have family? Sisters,
brothers, mother, father?”
“ No, there is no one,” he said
quietly. “My mother died during an outbreak of some sort when I was barely old
enough to move under my own power. My father was in the Armada, and died in
battle when I was in training as a young man. Could barely shave, yet I’d lost
everyone I considered mine. Bracken was there to get me through the loss of my
father. For that, I can never repay him.”
“ Heavens, I’m so sorry, Fintan .” She caught her lip between her teeth. “That’s a
fear that I think everyone with a spouse in the services has, the fear of
losing them.”
“ True,” he agreed. “But that’s a
depressing topic, and one I think we should avoid for the moment. I believe
it’s my turn to ask a question, so I think I’ll ask something a little harder.
What is your favorite part of a sexual relationship?”
“Hmm, that is a very hard
question.” As strange as it was, Adira wasn’t shocked
by his inquiry. If anyone had the right to ask her that question, it certainly
was him. Adira closed her eyes and thought about it
for a moment. “Learning. Yes, I know that’s a strange
thing to say is one of my favorite parts, but there it is. Learning
about myself, about my partner.” Although there were things she hadn’t
been able to experience as of yet. “Although, honestly?” She pulled back so she
could look at him. “I haven’t experienced what I’ve needed as of yet. I haven’t found someone that I could give all of my
trust to and allow him to ensure our mutual satisfaction.”
“ Trust is very important,
especially the more adventurous you get. The more you test the limits, push the
boundaries and explore, the more trust is required between partners. You need
to know that, no matter what happens, your partner’s first thought is always on
you and your pleasure.”
She didn’t say anything for a
time, but finally she nodded. “I trust you.” Those three words hadn’t been
spoken by her before to a male, not when it came to sex. She trusted her
brother, but this was physical trust, sexual trust that she gave to Fintan .
He looked stunned for a moment, then a softer, heated look slid over his face. Cupping her
cheek, he leaned in to press a kiss to her lips. “I trust you as well, Adira . More than you’ll ever fully know,” he said, and
kissed her again.
“ Good.” She brushed her nose to
his and nodded. “In a relationship we must have trust, right? If we aren’t able
to fully trust each other, then we can’t very well be able to trust ourselves. Right?”
Fin
nodded. “ Absolutely. You have to trust so you can
give fully of yourself, and so you can also receive everything your partner has
to offer. Without it, it’s shallow and empty. Which really
makes for a rather awkward and meaningless endeavor. ” Stroking a finger
down her cheek, he pulled her head back to his shoulder when he settled into
place once more. “Next question,” he said to her.
“ Do you have a
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