a boy walking on the road to church carrying a bible a man walking in the purple light he disappears then appears again still trudging the road still with the book under his arm • the early dawn in lilac is every sacrifice unearthly horses • a crucifixion naked and nailed every cool morning a resurrection with one foot I carelessly break ice in the ditch • light is lilac I enter the church
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(in the room our heads nod as though admitting all modesty aside to knowledge and understanding our teeth chew our throats swallow • we promise our mouths they may talk on and on munch on and on and on • outside the house the wind gusts all of a sudden opening the door • a few dud leaves brown and curled under wander in and sit in a meek row on the very edge of the carpet)
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after sleep rising to the gaze of the mirror to the knowledge of the river • she walked there sometimes I met her • once I found her yellow scarf • I raised my hand but the sun shifted and she was gone •
after death rising in the blue wind • after words
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are you the bride am I just a lover flicker and hawk • sweet woman sweet women the sun curls over the water and the fields and the mountains where everything lies like a student priest • for you woman dear t he door to my heart opens we have learned the odds and have embraced them • the scent of lilacs in the purple air of far Russia and her pure words have been spoken twice over and she said give this unknown woman my lonely grave •
and she said when I love I love try to understand how it is to live between the swords and the stars • on small scraps of paper she wrote the wonders of the inside of the head this woman the head of the poets of her time and she knows I’m a left-eyed man you don’t get to be a saint • seeking an end to memory • here’s the river again and the ice and Anna giving herself to love all garments fall from her but the garment of words • and what could be more beautiful than a woman clothed in words •
while in another century in another country Emily Dickinson vaults the midnight horse and gallops to her love
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(the thin pale man on the road on the opposite side of the street what’ll I do to call him over to my side of the world what can I say yoohoo you man with the scrubby beard you erstwhile mennonite • he doesn’t turn his head of course I wish he would • look Friesen I say look here I have been to your house I have eaten your good food • now my plate is empty if I visit again will you fill my bowl with salad fill my cup with tea • and fill my ears with more words than I could ever hope for my eyes also that I may be comforted with the truth) • let’s say we can halt fear let’s say the music’s loud enough we can hear it on our skins…
A State of Grace Author’ s note: The children are: Brythyll (trout) 13–14 years old Laurence 12 years old Boy 7 years old Nan 4–5 years old Mother and father who appear generally as mere shadows in the story. The two grandfathers who are responsible for the children’s education. One teaches them music and mathematics. The other teaches everything else. The time is probably the thirties. The place probably Britain (a suburb of London?). • Deep pools full of green fishes – these are the words that come first to her mind upon waking, and they are not simply words, for looking down she can clearly see sinuous creatures flitting in and out of the waterweeds, and her fingers like so many pale cormorants fishing for them in the drowned sky. No-one has ever touched the sky, but there it is, as real as numbers which surely mean nothing at all without the fingers to count them on. As real as five-finger exercises up and down the keys, marching sometimes, sometimes dancing, white and black and white and