wondering about too many things from her afternoon and evening watching his interactions with all three Tellers. And since heâd wandered out here with her and the evening air was still warmâand he didnât seem to be in any hurry for her to leaveâshe thought sheâd take the opportunity to do a little digging.
âYou donât seem all that comfortable with...things,â she ventured.
âThings?â
âGreta, being around kids...and John Sr., too. Did you know you were being named as Gretaâs guardian?â Livi asked, narrowing the scope of her inquiry to that for starters.
âSure, I knew. Mandy and J.J. asked me if Iâd do it. But you know, you never think anything is actually going to happen.â
âAnd now that it has? Is it a job you really want?â
His brows drew down over those brooding, coffee-colored eyes, but he didnât hesitate to say, âI wouldnât have it any other way.â
That surprised her. âItâs just that you donât seem...â She struggled for a diplomatic way to express what she was thinking. âYou arenât married anymore and donât have any kids of your own, if Iâm remembering what you said in Hawaiiââ
âJust before you said you werenât marriedâanymoreâand didnât have any kids, either, and then told me you didnât want to talk about our real lives,â he stated drily.
She needed fewer and fewer reminders of that night, as more and more details popped into her head every time she was with him.
But she stayed on track and said, âSo youâre a single guy without any experience with children, let alone a little girl. Yet they chose you as Gretaâs guardian.â
âAnd you canât figure out why they would have,â he surmised with a wry laugh and a hint of a smile that lifted one side of his mouth.
âIâm just wondering about it, is all.â
âI grew up here,â he said, nodding in the general direction of Northbridge. âOn the wrong side of the tracks. My fatherâs family had a good-sized working farm at one point, but when my old man inherited it he let everything go to seed, then sold it off acre by acre for booze money for him and my mother.â
That was blunt and raised Liviâs eyebrows. âYour parents had a drinking problem,â she said, putting it in more polite terms.
âThey didnât think it was a problem. For them, it was a way of life. They drank from the minute their feet hit the floor in the morning until they passed out. And when they came to, they drank more.â
âDid they do that from when you were just a little kid?â
âI think they always drank, yeahâmy mother even admitted that she drank some when she was pregnant with me. I can recall knowing as a little kid that there was my orange juice for breakfast and grown-up orange juice that I wasnât supposed to touch.â
âYou actually remember that?â
âI do,â he said without question, before picking up where heâd left off. âBut they held jobs until I was maybe seven or eight, so I guess they were initially whatâs considered âfunctional alcoholicsââtheyâd just hit the bottle hardest after work. But they got less and less functional and kept losing their jobs. By the time I was about Gretaâs age, drinking was pretty much their occupation.â
âBut they still took care of you,â Livi said, assuming that had to be true.
âIn their way,â he answered with a shrug. âThe more they drank, the more I took care of them. But luckily, as that started to happen, I was old enough to do things for myself.â
âEverything?â Livi asked, unable to imagine that a nine-or ten-year-old could take complete care of himself and his parents, too.
Callan looked embarrassed to admit it, but said, âI have a pretty high
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