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in his Irish lilt.
    I was obviously more tipsy than I realised
as I actually blushed and giggled at him as I took his hand in greeting. I released
his hand and settled into the music, closing my eyes and trying to forget about
the men in my life and focus instead, on having a good time. Before I knew it
Connor, and I had broken off from the group and were pressed up against each
other rocking together to the music. He kept talking close to my ear, I
couldn’t really hear him but I was laughing anyway because his voice was really
sexy and the heat, coupled with the alcohol were making me forget myself.
    But, when he leant in to kiss me, I
panicked. I pushed him away and wrestled my way through the crowd to get
outside for some fresh air.
    The moment I stepped out, I felt the cool
air coming off the water wash over me, I gulped it in greedily and walked
further out along the wharf to escape the noise as well. What was wrong with
me? That’s not the kind of person I am, I don’t dirty dance with random guys at
bars.
    “Katrina?” I turned to the voice. My head
started to throb as I realised Elliot had followed me out.
    I looked over my shoulder at him and
recognised that I was pissed off at him. “Go away Elliot,” I told him sternly.
    “No, I’m not going away. What the hell was
that about? You invited me out, to what? Watch you dry hump some guy on the
dance floor?”
    I spun around, “What? You haven’t even
spoken to me since we got here. Instead you’ve been focused on Beth!” I shook
my head and stepped away from him. “Oh my god, what am I even doing? I’ve
spoken to you what? Three, four times? We’ve trained together twice. I don’t
even want a relationship right now, and I’m acting like some jealous
girlfriend. Fuck me!” I complained as I ran my hands over my head in
frustration. Having him around me was making me act stupid.
    “No, it’s not just you. I'm behaving the
same way - from the moment I met you, I've done nothing but break my rules to
spend time with you,” Elliot said gently as he moved closer to me. “In a week
you’ve got me at a bar chasing you out because I felt insanely jealous watching
with that guy, and I acted like a fool at work when I saw you with David. I
just… I can’t stop thinking about you Katrina. I don’t even think I care anymore
if we’re not supposed to date because of work – all I know is that I want you,
and I don’t want you to be with anyone else.”
    “You could lose your job over this Elliot!”
    “So could you,” he said moving even closer
to me.
    “Who cares about my job, it’s entry level -
I can easily get another one,” his hand slid up and caressed the side of my
face causing a rush of longing to course through my body. I leaned into his
touch and closed my eyes as that magnetic attraction between us started to pull
us closer together, despite my own resistance.
    “I care about your job. My days are better
when you’re in them,” he whispered as he drew my face towards his and ever so
lightly, brushed his lips against mine. I let out a slight whimper as he
circled his arms around me. I felt myself melt into him, a merging of bodies
unlike anything I’d ever felt before. I parted my lips as his tongue started to
tease me, searching my mouth for a response and sucking my lips into his. My
reaction became urgent as I reached my arms behind his head and entwined my
fingers into his hair, pressing myself against him.
    His hands moved down towards my buttocks,
lifting me up in a show of strength as if I weighed nothing. I circled my legs
around his waist, clinging to him and kissing him like I was an addict, and he
was my drug, not giving a thought to where we were.
    My emotions were swimming around in my head
as I gave into my need for this man’s touch. I tightened my own grip around him
as my tongue dove into his mouth more forcefully, exploring him, drinking him
in.
    “Um Katrina?” an Irish accent broke the
moment.
    My eyes