to go to the bathroom.â
More snickers. Mr. Hansen let out a heavy sigh and handed her a pass. It was everything Kelly could do not to leap out of the classroom, but she made herself take it slow. She made herself walk, not run, down the hall to the pay phone outside the nurseâs office because running would get her stopped by a hall monitor or janitor. She knew this. It was the way life worked. Try to rush something, you get delayed. You break the rules, bad things happen.
Once she got to the pay phone, her heart starting pounding. In her mind, she told herself, It will be fine . Before she could think too long,she threw her quarter into the slot, plucked the Dennyâs matchbook out of the front pocket of her corduroys, and dialed Lenâs number.
It rang and rang and rang and rang.
Not home . She was about to hang up when, finally, a woman answered.
Kellyâs stomach dropped. âWho is this?â
âWho is this ?â
She shut her eyes, felt her cheeks flushing. âIs Len there? Sorry. Iâm just . . . Iâm looking for my friend Bellamy and I donât have her number and so Iâm wondering if maybeââ
âLen?â
âHeâs friends with my friend Bellamy and . . . uh . . .â
âIs Len your boyfriend or something?â
She cleared her throat. âI met him the other day. He gave me this number.â
The woman started to laugh.
âHe did. I swear.â
âYou sound young. How old are you, anyway? Twelve?â
Kelly exhaled hard. âNo.â
âHoney, trust me on this,â the woman said. âLen does not want to see you.â
â You donât know that . He gave me this number. He told me to call .â
The woman laughed some more. âThis number,â she said, âis a pay phone.â
Kellyâs cheeks burned. She slammed down the receiver, her neck hot, her throat swelling, that awful tingle starting in her belly, coursing through her . . . same thing she had felt on her first day back at school two years ago, working the combination on her locker next to Catherineâs empty one and knowing she had no one now. No sister to follow around. No chance of a friend.
Len had given her a made-up number.
Sheâd told him it was her first time. She hadnât planned to tell him thatâshe had wanted him to think it was no big deal, that she was like Bellamy. But the pot had felt like truth serum and his hands were crawling all over her and sheâd wanted him to know. Sheâd wanted him to know how important this was and how, after it happened, sheâd never be the same. Heâd given her a Kleenex. Heâd written down his number on the back of a matchbook and slipped it to her like a present. â So youâll think of me when you light up. â
Why bother lying like that? Why bother writing down a made-up phone number when she hadnât even asked? Was it some joke? Was all of itâBellamy and her house and the pot and everythingâwas all of it a joke that Len had been in on?
âLen likes you. I can tell.â
Kelly felt that heat pressing up against the backs of her eyes. She knew she was going to cry. She couldnât be here any longer. Her legs moved beneath her, like they were a separate machine, coming to her rescue, propelling her down the halls and lurching her to safety.
âNo running in the halls!â one of the janitors shouted. But Kelly pretended not to hear him. She didnât care about breaking rules anymore.
Before she could think very long about what she was doing, Kelly was out the front door of the school, and she was rushing down the steps, the sun too bright, the sidewalk hot beneath the wavy soles of her sandals.
It was an uncommonly warm day for this time of year . . . same as it had been two years ago, the stifling air from outside billowing into their house when Catherine opened the door for the last time. A blast of oven-heat
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