course, his inner demons always make me wonder if it’s truly possible for him to change. I feel confident when I’m with him, but then when someone…someone, like Seraphina…is around…well, then I’m not so sure. Why? Will I always feel like this? He told me again and again they were just friends. But even with his convictions, I knew down deep in my heart that something was going to happen…I knew he would break my heart.
It makes no sense that I’m starting to get swept off my feet by him again. Can I be so foolish? Is it possible for a person to make such a big mistake, be accountable for it and then change? For some reason, I’m starting to think it’s possible. I just hope…actually pray…this possibility becomes a reality. If I do really matter to him surely he can’t break my heart twice. But I can’t come to the decision to take him back so hastily, I need to be certain I am right, without a shadow of a doubt.
Besides where does this all leave Tyler? I certainly don’t want to play games and I do like him. But do I like him enough to see where it might go? I just don’t know and is it really fair to him when I still feel so strongly about Logan? I consider my questions and slowly come to the realization of what I must do.
“Hello? Earth to Emilia.” Bryn laughs.
“Huh?”
“Go and get ready.” She nudges me in the shoulder. “Here’s a cocktail to help you get into the party mode.”
I glance at the drink. “A margarita? I thought you weren’t having these anymore?”
“I’m not, but you are. Tequila loosens you up, it makes me throw up.” She laughs. “That’s why I’m switching to Vodka.”
“Vodka? Just don’t chug it, we all know you are quite the lightweight.” I tease and wink at her.
Carrying my over-the-top gift, I head up the stairs and into my bedroom. Before I get in the shower, I pull out my phone and text Logan.
ME: Hi…Thank you for the amazing gift.
LOGAN: I’m glad you think it’s amazing.
ME: I really can’t accept it.
LOGAN: You can and you should…or you can give it to Bryn.
ME: Bossy much?
LOGAN: If it helps to get you back then sure. Listen to the playlist and read my emails. They say a lot about how I feel about you. By the way, I was going to stop by the store today, but your boss had other plans for me.
ME: Teabagging? I can’t believe I just wrote that…even after learning your definition. Just couldn’t resist ;)
LOGAN: There’s only one thing I can’t resist…you.
ME: Thing?
LOGAN: A thing of beauty is a joy for ever: Its loveliness increases; it will never pass into nothingness.
ME: John Keats. As always, I’m impressed.
LOGAN: See you tonight?
ME: I told you. I have plans.
LOGAN: Can’t blame a guy for trying ;)
I grin like a fool when I read his last message. Resisting Logan is no small task. Of course, that’s what he’s so good at. Isn’t it what got me caught up in his spell from the start?
IT SEEMS LIKE YESTERDAY when we were at Elsie’s , but then I remember it was just yesterday. Tonight I’m not hiding out in a dark corner; Logan knows I’m here to watch Tyler and his band…I have nothing to hide. Or do I?
I know by the way Bryn’s eyes widen as she glances over my shoulder that trouble is upon me and maybe I would be better off ensconced in a dark corner. Sharp fingernails barely scrape my exposed shoulder, but it’s just enough to make me turn. An annoyingly audible gasp escapes my mouth while my stomach drops.
“Hey.”
I’m struck speechless. Seraphina has never uttered one word to me. Ever. And now that she just did, I definitely prefer the silent treatment.
She stands in the middle of two, equally trampy-attired girls. They are all skintight jeans, similar tight, low-cut tops that leave nothing to the imagination. Immediately, I feel like I have just stepped into the movie, “Mean Girls.”
Bryn grabs me by my arm. “Once a ‘ho, always a ‘ho.” Oh, excuse me, did I
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