projectile-vomit across the room. I consider faking it, but Iâm afraid it might bring the real thing back up. Carrie eyes me warily. âAre you going to school tomorrow?â
âYeah. Iâm going.â
âAnd â¦?â
âI think I might write the paper.â
âYou suck,â Carrie declares at my forehead, since I wonât lift my face and look her in the eyes. âI canât believe how badly you suck. Youâre going to chicken out. What a complete wimp. I canât believe you.â
Unable to face my sister, I shift my attention to M.C., who is still smiling. She has a piece of green apple skin stuck between her teeth, right next to her left upper canine. I start to tell her, then get embarrassed, and decide instead that it goes well with the freckles on her nose. Something about the freckles and the apple she is chomping on makes me think of Tom Sawyer. M.C. looks out of place in our living room. She should be out convincing someone to whitewash a fence.
I really want to ask her about Curtis, but I donât thinkIâm supposed to know and anyway, Iâm not sure how I could ask her. I try to imagine her kissing Curtis, but I just canât see it. They donât fit in the same picture. I can imagine M.C. kissing, in fact I can imagine
kissing
M.C., which isnât something I have thought about beforeâI am suddenly uncomfortable.
M.C. stops chewing for a moment, the half-masticated apple still in her mouth, and shakes her head. The smile never leaves her face. Holding a hand in front of her mouth to block our view of its contents, she declares, âNope. No paper. You canât write the paper. You have to show the film.â Mary Clarissa frequently speaks in pronouncements.
âI donât recall putting you in charge of my life.â
âSorry, but itâs true. Canât chicken out now.â She returns to chewing happily.
âBut I read the book!â
I donât write the essay. It isnât so much that Iâm convinced by Carrie and M.C.; Iâm just not sure how I would explain to Curtis that I changed my mind. So instead I rip a piece of paper out of my math notebook and jot down all the ways my movie is thematically connected to
The Grapes of Wrath
, in case Curtis challenges me. I come up with four pretty good ones and two more that are kind of a stretch. I donât include Steinbeck as Satan, which would make it seven. Iâm back to feeling pretty confident and I start to pick up the phone to call David, which is whatI would normally do, but I donât want to hear him tell me Iâm an idiot again. It occurs to me that I always call David. He almost never calls me. Maybe he wouldnât want me to call. Iâm still sitting at my desk, phone in hand, ten minutes later when my mother calls me down for dinner.
CHAPTER 11
A Short Dramatic Presentation of a Wells Family Dinner, Followed by a Quick Review of the Entire History of My Love Life
So, dinner
Usual chaos. Conversation of a sort. I imagine conversations the way they appear in books. Orderly paragraphs, properly punctuated. Not in my house.
Carrie and I eat at the breakfast bar, perched on lime-colored vinyl-covered stools that must have been popular in some decade I missed. Mom usually eats standing on the other side of the bar. Tonight sheâs just standing with her glass of white wine. I always worry a little when Mom isnât eating her own cooking. Maybe sheâs waiting for Dad, who called and said he would be home in time for dinner. None of us believed him. Heâs still at work.
Carrie begins:
âDid you buy your prom tickets yet?â
At least itâs a new topic. I am not up for another discussion about my English project. While Iâm answering that I havenât decided whether or not Iâm going, Mom has already jumped in. âWhy donât you take M.C.?â
Carrie makes a choking noise, which mirrors
Marita Conlon-Mckenna
Gerald Clarke
Barbara Delinsky
Gabrielle Holly
Margo Bond Collins
Sarah Zettel
Liz Maverick
Hy Conrad
Richard Blanchard
Nell Irvin Painter