Beth,” explains David, showing me the web page he has found just by typing a few of my symptoms into Google. Why didn’t I think of doing that? I take the mouse and click through to see a few of the forum posts. After a few minutes’ reading, I am opened up to a whole new world. My story – that of being subjected to the whim of someone else’s thoughts and the tidal waves of emotions that aren’t my own – is mirrored all over this site. Dozens of people who thought they were crazy, who hear voices, see images and feel feelings that aren’t their own.
Granted, a couple of them sound absolutely BARKING – and there is much talk of unicorns and angels, reincarnation and time portals. But hey, I am not alone. I am not alone.
These people understand what I’m going through. The advice they give each other; to reaffirm your name and what you like when you feel taken over by others; that sounds sensible to them but silly to an outsider. I wonder, am I an outsider, or one of them?
I think David can see this is an unexpected gift. He is smiling.
“You’re an empath, Beth. Most empaths are creative types,” he explains. “Writers, poets, musicians; dreamers who understand pain and passion, laughter and love. “If you treat yourself better, Beth, you can find this talent will be the making of you, perhaps?”
The explanation tells me that Joel is probably an empath too. That’s how we connect.
I mull over what he has said. The death card is still playing on my mind, despite what David said about transformation. “Do you believe in reincarnation, David?”
He thinks for a minute. “Yes, I think perhaps I do.”
“You’re not sure?”
“I’m not sure about anything, Beth. I don’t even truly believe that time is a line we must follow. Those who believe in reincarnation might suggest that you and your Joel were together in a previous existence. But who’s to say how time works? People see ghosts from a thousand years ago walking among us, which suggests that time may play out quite differently.”
“You mean different times could run alongside themselves, like parallel universes, or something?”
“Well there are theories about parallel universes. I’m familiar with a few. I think there’s one called the Everett ‘Many Worlds’ interpretation; that one’s been around since the 1950s. You should look it up.” He scratches his head as I wrestle my notepad and pen out of my bag to take note of what he is telling me.
“Everett, you say?”
“Yes… I’m sure it’s Everett. And I’ve read articles from a science perspective on the quantum theory of reincarnation and quite recently there was some highly credible scientific research published on things called mirror neurons, which could also be behind what you’ve experienced.”
I write down ‘quantum theory - reincarnation’ and ‘mirror neurons’.
A few more taps on the keyboard and he shows me a number of web pages about something called Twin Flame or Twin Soul reunions.
“Then you have the slightly – err – less scientific explanations,” he adds with a wry grin, showing me this:
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Have you met your twin?
Signs that you have found your twin soul include overwhelming attraction, a sense of feeling ‘complete’ in the presence of the other person and the ability to know and feel what the other person is feeling, even when apart. The strength of feeling can be so great upon finding their twin, as to cause a complete breakdown in the person’s previous relationships.
How does this happen? The soul begins as one but becomes split into two, whole souls. During many incarnations, the separated souls must gather a richness of human experience before being reunited in their final lifetimes, after which they may ascend to heaven, together.
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“ So Joel could be my… my soul twin ?” I hesitate over the silliness of the phrase while secretly
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