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was pretty much my experience for about 40 years. Now you can appreciate what it felt like to not be what I thought I was. It’s like the idea of wearing tight shoes all the time and after a while not realising they are hurting your feet. You just get used to it and put up with them. When you get the chance to take them off, the relief is immediately apparent. You can wiggle your toes again and let them out of their enclosure at last. It is just like that: feeling oneself to be in the body with the world outside. The release is like letting the air out of a balloon that has been expanding for 40 years inside your stomach. When that air goes, the relaxation is almost worthy of the contraction. The lengths Wholeness goes to notice itself. However, there is no-one to feel bitter and twisted at the last 40 years or so. There is just resting in not knowing and full-on aliveness. Everything is how it should be; nothing could have been any different. You cannot have someone else’s dream; it will not work.
You may find tasks that you may have had to get a man in to do before you now tackle yourself with a new ease and confidence. I repaired my van when the immobiliser shut down the fuel pump. This saved me a packet and I can confirm it is still running today in 2012. Of course Wholeness breaks vans and also repairs them. There is no van really, but I still need it to ferry me around when I sort people’s locks out.
The Appeal to Perfection
This false sense of self that is created to negotiate with the outside world can have some very high standards for itself. Because it is false it bears very little relation to what you really are. But because it imagines other people more competent than you, better looking than you and more intelligent, it seems to create an idealised image based on a fantasy of what you should be like to feel ok in the world. That idealised image will not let you win because it will always move the goal posts. No matter what you achieve, someone else will always be better at things than you are. It does not matter how much praise you receive, you do not feel that good about your achievements. It can even get to the stage you will feel embarrassed if your shoe laces come undone. It is not a case of simply stopping and retying them. You get frustrated first and only stop when the coast is clear. You have strayed from the path of perfection you laid down for yourself. This will always confirm your unworthiness to this imposter of an image. Thank goodness you are not that one. That one is a sad and doomed fellow, only suitable for the trash can.
I am probably being a bit extreme with the shoe laces, but the perfection trap can stop us from trying new things and prevent us from enjoying the company of others, because not only do we want to know everything, we want to be the best conversationalist as well. Any silences in our performance can activate the ‘I am a bore’ routine and then avoid any situation where you know performance may be below standard. You can never have a day off, ever.
Science: Tripping Over
Its Own Shoe Laces
Scientific enquiry has shaped the world we find ourselves in today. For instance, the sophisticated communication devices that we use every day are a far cry from drums or burning beacons on hill tops.
Science describes the universe from information retrieved from painstaking experiments and deduction in association with instruments that display predictable qualities regardless of the operator: a telescope magnifies consistently, whoever it is looking through the lens.
I remember chemistry lessons at high school that described the atom and its bonding characteristics which form all the amazing bits and pieces that surround us. I would be still trying to get my head around subatomic particles and the teacher had moved on, leaving me unable to fully grasp any further information. There was a sense, somewhere, I think, that this information
You may find tasks that you may have had to get a man in to do before you now tackle yourself with a new ease and confidence. I repaired my van when the immobiliser shut down the fuel pump. This saved me a packet and I can confirm it is still running today in 2012. Of course Wholeness breaks vans and also repairs them. There is no van really, but I still need it to ferry me around when I sort people’s locks out.
The Appeal to Perfection
This false sense of self that is created to negotiate with the outside world can have some very high standards for itself. Because it is false it bears very little relation to what you really are. But because it imagines other people more competent than you, better looking than you and more intelligent, it seems to create an idealised image based on a fantasy of what you should be like to feel ok in the world. That idealised image will not let you win because it will always move the goal posts. No matter what you achieve, someone else will always be better at things than you are. It does not matter how much praise you receive, you do not feel that good about your achievements. It can even get to the stage you will feel embarrassed if your shoe laces come undone. It is not a case of simply stopping and retying them. You get frustrated first and only stop when the coast is clear. You have strayed from the path of perfection you laid down for yourself. This will always confirm your unworthiness to this imposter of an image. Thank goodness you are not that one. That one is a sad and doomed fellow, only suitable for the trash can.
I am probably being a bit extreme with the shoe laces, but the perfection trap can stop us from trying new things and prevent us from enjoying the company of others, because not only do we want to know everything, we want to be the best conversationalist as well. Any silences in our performance can activate the ‘I am a bore’ routine and then avoid any situation where you know performance may be below standard. You can never have a day off, ever.
Science: Tripping Over
Its Own Shoe Laces
Scientific enquiry has shaped the world we find ourselves in today. For instance, the sophisticated communication devices that we use every day are a far cry from drums or burning beacons on hill tops.
Science describes the universe from information retrieved from painstaking experiments and deduction in association with instruments that display predictable qualities regardless of the operator: a telescope magnifies consistently, whoever it is looking through the lens.
I remember chemistry lessons at high school that described the atom and its bonding characteristics which form all the amazing bits and pieces that surround us. I would be still trying to get my head around subatomic particles and the teacher had moved on, leaving me unable to fully grasp any further information. There was a sense, somewhere, I think, that this information
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