candidate. What would you like to drink?” he asked.
Donna was listening. It was all making her feel low and stupid. It was making her feel like a poor person who would always stay poor because she never had more to give than physical pleasures to a man with money.
All in the name of grabbing whatever table scraps were available.
Suddenly, she shot up to her feet. The words of Paul the bum were bouncing around in her head. The words were actually causing her some sort of physical pain the more they did.
“I have to go,” she said abruptly. “I do appreciate the offer and the interview but I have to go. I am also withdrawing my name for consideration for the job. It’s not what I want to do with myself. It’s not my dream.”
She walked out the door and into the cool night wondering just she would get some income going.
…
Donna negotiated her way down the winding roads of Bradley’s neighborhood toward the Pacific Coast Highway feeling a great deal more nervous than she did after confronting Chris and Brea in her bedroom.
The easy move and the one that would have gotten her back in the work force would have been to sleep with the man and get it over with. Something wouldn’t let her and she hoped it was the same something both Paul and Peter talked about.
She flipped on the radio and began letting it scroll on it’s own to find something to listen to. Not because she didn’t have favorites pre-programmed but because she was too busy thinking and trying not to crash into a car or driveway on these winding neighborhood streets in the dark.
“Her name is Rachel Evans and the website is…” the woman’s voice said tailing off.
The giggle of a young girl could be heard.
“Well I don’t actually have a website,” the girl said with a squeaky voice that made Donna think she was no more than like ten. “I have something more worthwhile. I have lots and lots of followers and I think they are all seeing the truth. We don’t have to buy into male fantasy beauty because reality beauty is real beauty.”
“We gotta run Rachel,” the hostess interjected.
“It’s Beauty Lies channel on YouTube,” she said. “That’s the only place you can find me.”
The channel slipped off. Apparently the talk radio station signal weakened as Donna turned right onto the PCH headed back toward Inglewood and home.
She thought for a moment about Brea and wondered how she was making money for real. She hoped she taught her well enough not to do anything illegal or wrong. But she wouldn’t turn away the money if Brea brought it.
She also thought of how understatedly beautiful Brea was never wearing cosmetics of any kind.
She would jump on the computer as soon as she got home and take a closer look at what Rachel Evans was doing on her video site. It would all go down better with one of those Coors Lights.
…
“You can’t ever know how it will end up.”
Those were the words of Sergeant Michael Raburn, United States Marine Corps as he bid farewell to his Vietnamese Mistress, Lo Dha Ling.
She was only sixteen and clueless about things like love. The American had professed his devotion for her. He came often and they did adult things. She loved him she thought. He bought her nice clothes and he brought her family food.
Then one day he was gone. The North Vietnamese were rolling down in their direction through the tattered South Vietnamese army.
He told her he had to go and that he had a wife and kids back home. He told her that If she could make it to the US, somehow, they would be together. Her family was poor city folks but her dad was an adjunct for the government to help round up Communist sympathizers.
The North Vietnamese and their guerillas had informers everywhere. Everyone would be trying to get in good with the new men in power by turning in someone. Lo's dad was a marked man.