on his legs. Bob and Margaret had insisted that he come and stay with them until he was well enough to be on his own. “I’d like to keep you here for a week, make sure you’re doing OK before we let you go home. You’re to start radiotherapy once the swelling goes down. It will be five days a week for about five or six weeks. As I told you before, you may experience some side effects like nausea, dizziness, that type of thing but we’ll treat you with drugs to minimize the effects. You will need someone to drive you to therapy and to keep an eye on you at home. Once you’ve finished those treatments you can start the physiotherapy which could take up to two months.” Great! For someone who hated to take medicine and to see doctors, he was about to see more of them in the next few months than he had in his entire his life. At least he had a life and for that he should really be grateful.
A week later
Daniel lay immobile while radio waves were applied to his head to remove the rest of the tumor. The actual procedure was painless but his whole face and head were covered by a mask made of some kind of plastic which had been molded to fit the shape of his face before he left the hospital. It felt like a vice and was so tight he thought it would crush the rest of his brain. It made him feel claustrophobic and he couldn’t wait for the few minutes of radiation to finish before he could get it off. He could relate to the Phantom of the Opera. He had nothing to do but think as he lay there. He couldn’t imagine how he was going to endure this for the next six weeks. Wellington had also warned him that he might feel nauseous from the treatments. God, he hoped not. Moving his head around was still agonizing, he couldn’t imagine what it would feel like if he was throwing up as well. Was he really supposed to be learning something from this? No answers were forthcoming, but then again, he didn’t expect any. He realized that he had little control over what fate threw at him, but it was up to him how he responded. Right there and then he made a vow that this would not defeat him.
Several hours later
Daniel tried to remember the vow he had made in the radiation room, as he leaned over the toilet in his bathroom at Margaret’s house and heaved the contents of his stomach up. The violent movements made pain explode in his head and drained him of what little energy he had. He washed his mouth and staggered back to his bed, leaning heavily on the walker that he had bought to help him about in these early days. “Daniel, are you alright?” asked Margaret knocking softly on the door. When he didn’t answer she pushed open the door and repeated the question louder. She kept forgetting that he only had hearing in one ear now and he was still adjusting to that. “No, I’m not alright. I feel sick and weak and I don’t know how the hell I’m going to get through these next few weeks.” “The hospital gave me some medicine to help with the nausea. I’ll get it for you now. Would you like some broth?” Daniel groaned at the thought of food. He had little appetite and his mouth tasted metallic anyway. “That’s the last thing I want Margaret. I’ll just rest a bit.” He hoped she would leave. He appreciated all that Margaret was doing for him but, right now, he just wanted to be left alone.
Two weeks later
Daniel ran a comb gently through his hair as he prepared for yet another session of therapy. He stared in horror at the comb which was full of hair and the vanity which was littered with even more strands. He closed his eyes in despair. As if the tiredness and nausea weren’t bad enough, his hair was now falling out. He’d read about it but still wasn’t prepared for the reality of it. He’d have to ask Bob or Margaret to shave the rest off since he was definitely not going to the salon that he frequented for that. He cleaned up the hair