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Authors: Kristy Love
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before you even put yourself in the race.”
I didn’t agree with her and I didn’t want to keep talking about it, so I decided to turn it into a joke. “The race, huh?” I smirked at her. “What race is this?”
She laughed and stood. “Come on, speed racer. Let’s go walk around a bit. We have a phone to purchase.”
Will
M OST DAYS IT WAS HARD to get out of bed.
Memories I thought I had suppressed were resurfacing and it was tearing me apart. It was getting harder and harder to pretend I was okay when every smile was fake and every laugh hurt. I was physically and emotionally exhausted, and every time I tried to fall asleep I was assaulted by memories or woken up by horrible nightmares.
The guilt was debilitating.
I couldn’t escape the fact that my parents were dead and I had killed them. Nothing would ever take that back. I started having panic attacks at the most inopportune times, but I hid the attacks from everyone, including Aunt Liv. I didn’t her to worry about me more than she already did.
I would never be normal because a normal person wouldn’t kill his parents.
Will
T HE REST OF S EPTEMBER FLEW BY . Going to public school was completely different from homeschooling. I had different teachers with different teaching styles and personalities and a ton of homework, but the thing that I had the most trouble getting used to were the other students. It was strange being around people my own age when I was so used to being around adults. I found the majority of them immature and annoying, but that was to be expected. So much of my life had been spent around adults.
The buzz around school was homecoming. Jax was going with Lindsey, of course. I wasn’t planning on going because the only person I wanted to go with was Ryanne and Jax had made it very clear that Ryanne and I were supposed to be strictly friends. I was trying to respect that because I didn’t want to come between Jax and his sister, even though it was a struggle to respect his wishes.
“What are your homecoming plans?” Stacey asked. She had been flirting with me pretty constantly, though I never encouraged her. I knew she had turned down a few people hoping I’d ask her, but I listened to Jax’s advice. Something about her rubbed me the wrong way and I didn’t want to invest more time than necessary in awful people.
“I’m not planning on going.”
“What? You aren’t going to homecoming?”
“Why? Are you inviting me?”
Jax laughed. “Shit. I’m a bad influence. Listen to you being a smart ass.”
“What can I say? I learned from the best.” I smiled, feeling oddly proud of myself.
“Damn right. Linds and I are going to the dance. I wasn’t sure if you were asking anyone.”
“I don’t know who I’d ask.”
“Anyone you want.”
“I don’t want to be a pity date.”
“Who do you want to go with?”
I wanted to go with Ry.
I thought Lindsey was annoying and fake, but I didn’t forbid Jax from dating her. Why should I let him stop me from asking Ry? But I lacked the courage to stand up to him. “I’m not sure.”
“Most of Lindsey’s friends already have dates or I’d hook you up with one of them,” Jax said. He looked around the cafeteria. “Most of the hot girls already have a date since the dance is a week away.”
“It’s not a big deal. I don’t have to go.”
“Fuck that. Let me ask around. I’ll see if I can find you a date.”
“You can ask me,” Stacey said, batting her eyes at me. For some reason, she thought that made her look attractive. I thought she looked like she had something in her eye. Suddenly, I felt trapped. How could I get out of this? There was no way I could suffer through an entire evening with Stacey. It was time to make a stand against Jax. If it were a choice between upsetting Jax or spending time with Stacey, I’d rather upset Jax.
I inhaled deeply, gathering courage. “There is someone I’m interested in asking.”
“Oh, yeah? Who?”
My heart
I didn’t agree with her and I didn’t want to keep talking about it, so I decided to turn it into a joke. “The race, huh?” I smirked at her. “What race is this?”
She laughed and stood. “Come on, speed racer. Let’s go walk around a bit. We have a phone to purchase.”
Will
M OST DAYS IT WAS HARD to get out of bed.
Memories I thought I had suppressed were resurfacing and it was tearing me apart. It was getting harder and harder to pretend I was okay when every smile was fake and every laugh hurt. I was physically and emotionally exhausted, and every time I tried to fall asleep I was assaulted by memories or woken up by horrible nightmares.
The guilt was debilitating.
I couldn’t escape the fact that my parents were dead and I had killed them. Nothing would ever take that back. I started having panic attacks at the most inopportune times, but I hid the attacks from everyone, including Aunt Liv. I didn’t her to worry about me more than she already did.
I would never be normal because a normal person wouldn’t kill his parents.
Will
T HE REST OF S EPTEMBER FLEW BY . Going to public school was completely different from homeschooling. I had different teachers with different teaching styles and personalities and a ton of homework, but the thing that I had the most trouble getting used to were the other students. It was strange being around people my own age when I was so used to being around adults. I found the majority of them immature and annoying, but that was to be expected. So much of my life had been spent around adults.
The buzz around school was homecoming. Jax was going with Lindsey, of course. I wasn’t planning on going because the only person I wanted to go with was Ryanne and Jax had made it very clear that Ryanne and I were supposed to be strictly friends. I was trying to respect that because I didn’t want to come between Jax and his sister, even though it was a struggle to respect his wishes.
“What are your homecoming plans?” Stacey asked. She had been flirting with me pretty constantly, though I never encouraged her. I knew she had turned down a few people hoping I’d ask her, but I listened to Jax’s advice. Something about her rubbed me the wrong way and I didn’t want to invest more time than necessary in awful people.
“I’m not planning on going.”
“What? You aren’t going to homecoming?”
“Why? Are you inviting me?”
Jax laughed. “Shit. I’m a bad influence. Listen to you being a smart ass.”
“What can I say? I learned from the best.” I smiled, feeling oddly proud of myself.
“Damn right. Linds and I are going to the dance. I wasn’t sure if you were asking anyone.”
“I don’t know who I’d ask.”
“Anyone you want.”
“I don’t want to be a pity date.”
“Who do you want to go with?”
I wanted to go with Ry.
I thought Lindsey was annoying and fake, but I didn’t forbid Jax from dating her. Why should I let him stop me from asking Ry? But I lacked the courage to stand up to him. “I’m not sure.”
“Most of Lindsey’s friends already have dates or I’d hook you up with one of them,” Jax said. He looked around the cafeteria. “Most of the hot girls already have a date since the dance is a week away.”
“It’s not a big deal. I don’t have to go.”
“Fuck that. Let me ask around. I’ll see if I can find you a date.”
“You can ask me,” Stacey said, batting her eyes at me. For some reason, she thought that made her look attractive. I thought she looked like she had something in her eye. Suddenly, I felt trapped. How could I get out of this? There was no way I could suffer through an entire evening with Stacey. It was time to make a stand against Jax. If it were a choice between upsetting Jax or spending time with Stacey, I’d rather upset Jax.
I inhaled deeply, gathering courage. “There is someone I’m interested in asking.”
“Oh, yeah? Who?”
My heart