youâve fallen in love with.â
âI see, yes,â he said.
âWe can be happy without marriage. As long as we stay in love. Donât you see that, darling?â
It seemed to him there was anxiety in her eyes. As for him, the Grand Marnier was gone by now, together with his anger and most of his sickness. Only emptiness was left.
âNo, Sheila, I donât. I donât say what you propose is immoralâthe hell with that; itâs worse. Itâs impractical. If marriage without love is hateful, so is love without marriage. It has to creep instead of walk, skulk in dark corners, hideââ
âIt has to do no such thing,â Sheila retorted. Her head was cocked, her tone cool. âYouâre talking like a schoolboy, darling, do you know that? Last nightâsatisfied with a kiss in the dark. Really, Dane! And now this goody-goody talk. Whatâs next? Are you going to tell me youâve been keeping yourself chaste for your one and only little wifie? The difference between us is that youâre a romantic, and Iâm a merchant realist.â
So there it wasâthe shrew hidden in every woman, the flash of carnivorous teeth, the bite.
He had thought of himself as taking his pleasure when and where he could create it, a reasonably sophisticated man. And here was Sheila, making him feel like aâwhat had she called him?âa schoolboy! Looking at her, he felt abjectly estranged. No trace of warmth or womanliness seemed left in the symmetrical face before him. It was like a Greek sculpture, smoothly inscrutable with secrets buried in time. Her philosophy was as far beyond him as his was beyond his motherâs. Maybe he was still a Yaley at heart: have fun while youâre unattached, then settle down with a wifeâhave fun afterward, too, if you could get away with it.
But Sheilaâs philosophy seemed contemptuous of any standard. He was sure he could never catch up with her, even surer that he didnât want to. And yet ⦠a line from a poem he had jeered at came into his head: La Belle Dame sans Merci/ Hath thee in thrall .
It was as if she knew it, for she chuckled; and even this tiny sound from her throat made him hunger.
âOh, Dane, donât look so woebegone,â she cried. âInstead of being married lovers, weâll be lovers, period. Dane ⦠donât tell me youâve never had a woman!â She looked at him with absolute horror.
He was glad that she was not smiling when she said it, or he might have leaped at her. The brandy had been a mere stopgap; the beginning of the old feared roaring stirred in his ears. Careful, he warned himself; keep control, as he felt his hands become fists.
âYes, Iâve had women, but I must seem impossibly old-fashioned to you. Because Iâm strictly a one-woman man. Well, Iâve had my share of disappointments. This seems to be another of them.â
âOh, Dane.â She moved away a little. âYou say youâre a one-woman man. Donât you mean youâre a one-woman-at-a-time man? And thatâs just right with me. I shouldnât want it any other way. Iâve no intention of sharing you with somebody. Weâre not far apart at all. Isnât that true?â When his mouth clamped tighter, Sheila said, âI donât mean Iâd never consider marriage. In a way, it would be up to you to show me that marriageâwith youâis what I really want.
âBut I donât want it at this particular time, not even with you. Iâm a one-man-at-a-time gal, and right now that man can be you. But you must understand that while Iâd be yours and yours only, I donât know for how long. A week, a month, five yearsâmaybe forever; how can either of us tell? You notify me when you want out, and Iâll do the same.â
Was he, could he really be, in love with her?
Dane began to pace, and Sheila sat back and watched him with that
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