threw a shirt in my suitcase and nodded. Before Iâd found the paint set, I never lied. At least, hardly ever. There was that time Iâd told Abbey her new dress was prettyâeven though I didnât like the shade of red. But that hadnât been a bad lie. Ever since the time loop started, Iâd been lying to everyone. I felt like something inside me was shriveling up, like a seed with no water.
I wanted to tell the truth, but if I did, who would believe that we were all repeating the same day over and over? I wasnât even sure if it was happening only here at the shore. Or in all of New Jersey. Or, maybe, all over the world.
Were artists everywhere doing the same sketches over and over again every day? Just like I was.
âIâll give you a hand,â Mom said. She picked up my sketchpad off the floor. âDid you do any drawings today?â
âA few.â
âIâd love to see what youâve done.â
I flipped the cover and showed Mom some of the sketches Iâd made earlier that day of Kevin and G-Mags.
She put her hand to her chest. âOh my!â she exclaimed.
I dropped the pad and turned to her. âWhat is it? Are you okay?â
âThese drawings. Theyâre beautiful.â
âMom, you scared me!â
âWhy have you been hiding them?â
âUh, I donât know . . . to surprise you?â I really did hate lying to her.
âI knew youâd been practicing, but I had no idea how much youâd improved this summer.â Her eyes got shiny.
âWhatâs wrong?â
âI canât believe how lucky I am to have a daughter with this much talent. This drawing of Kevin . . . look at those details . . . just beautiful.â She stroked my hair. âAnd you havenât even started lessons with your new art teacher yet.â
My heart glowed inside me. âSo you think heâll like these?â
âHeâd be crazy not to.â
Before the time loop, Mom and I talked about art all the time. Saturdays were our special day together. Mom would make chocolate chip pancakes and weâd stay in our pajamas till noon. But there were no more Saturdays. No more Sundays, either. When I thought about it, my chest felt hollow.
I gestured to the book in Momâs hand, the one with the picture of van Goghâs famous painting The Starry Night on the cover. âTell me more about van Gogh.â
âLetâs see,â she said. âHereâs a little-known fact: in Holland, they pronounce his name van Hauck .â She said it like there was something stuck in the back of her throat and she was trying to cough it up.
âReally?â I imitated her pronunciationââvan Houck ââand had to swallow several times before I could talk again. âTell me more,â I said, âabout his art.â
She pointed to the painting on the book cover. âHere you can see van Gogh made the swirls in the clouds look like a yin-yang symbol.â
âYin-yang? Whatâs that?â
âItâs a symbol found in Eastern religions. It represents what we think of as opposite forces. Like male and female, destruction and creation, dark andââ
âBut why would van Gogh put that symbol in the middle of the painting?â
âNo one will ever know. Thatâs the beauty of art. Perhaps it had something to do with the necessity of opposing forces: shadows canât exist without light. We wouldnât know something was sweet if we never tasted something bitter.â
âSo, itâs like an oxymoron?â
âYes, sort of. Vincent van Gogh was a troubled soul. He might have been suggesting something about accepting both the good and bad aspects of life.â
âBut what if we didnât have to accept the bad?â I asked.
âWhat do you mean?â
âWhat if we could live in paradise, like the story of Adam and Eve
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