want with acorns she enchants to pass as money. Taryn doesnât love it the way Vivi does, but she has fun. When I am here, though, I feel like a ghost.
We strut through the JCPenney as though weâre the most dangerous things around. But when I see human families all together, especially families with sticky-mouthed, giggling little sisters, I donât like the way I feel.
Angry.
I donât imagine myself back in a life like theirs; what I imagine is going over there and scaring them until they cry.
I would never, of course.
I mean, I donât think I would.
Taryn seems to notice the way my gaze snags on a child whining to her mother. Unlike me, Taryn is adaptable. She knows the right things to say. Sheâd be okay if she were thrust back into this world. Sheâs okay now. She will fall in love, just as she said. She will metamorphose into a wife or consort and raise faerie children who will adore and outlive her. The only thing holding her back is me.
I am
so glad
she canât guess my thoughts.
âSo,â Vivi says. âWeâre here because you both could use some cheering up. So cheer up.â
I look over at Taryn and take a deep breath, ready to apologize. I donât know if thatâs what Vivi had in mind, but itâs what Iâve known I had to do since I got out of bed. âIâm sorry,â I blurt out.
âYouâre probably mad,â Taryn says at the same time.
âAt you?â I am astonished.
Taryn droops. âI swore to Cardan that I wouldnât help you, even though I came with you that day to help.â
I shake my head vehemently. âReally, Taryn, youâre the one who should be angry that I got you tossed into the water in the first place. Getting yourself out of there was the smart thing to do. I would never be mad about that.â
âOh,â she says. âOkay.â
âTaryn told me about the prank you played on the prince,â Vivi says. I see myself reflected in her sunglasses, doubled, quadrupled with Taryn beside me. âPretty good, but now youâre going to have to do something much worse. Iâve got ideas.â
âNo!â Taryn says with vehemence. âJude doesnât need to do
anything
. She was just upset about Madoc and the tournament. If she goes back to ignoring them, theyâll go back to ignoring her, too. Maybe not at first, but eventually.â
I bite my lip because I donât think thatâs true.
âForget Madoc. Knighthood would have been boring anyway,â Vivi says, effectively dismissing the thing Iâve been working toward for years. I sigh. Itâs annoying, but also reassuring that she doesnât think itâs that big a deal, when the loss has felt overwhelming to me.
âSo what do you want to do?â I ask Vivi to avoid any more of this discussion. âAre we seeing a movie? Do you want to try on lipsticks? Donât forget you promised me coffee.â
âI want you to meet my girlfriend,â Vivienne says, and I remember the pink-haired girl in the strip of photos. âShe asked me to move in with her.â
âHere?â I ask, as though there could be any other place.
âThe mall?â Vivi laughs at our expressions. âWeâre going to meet her here today but probably find a different place to
live
. Heather doesnât know Faerie exists, so donât mention it, okay?â
When Taryn and I were ten, Vivi learned how to make ragwort horses. We ran away from Madocâs house a few days later. At a gas station, Vivi enchanted a random woman to take us home with her.
I still remember the womanâs blank face as she drove. I wanted to make her smile, but no matter what funny faces I pulled, her expression didnât change. We spent the night in her house, sick after having ice cream for dinner. I cried myself to sleep, clinging to a weeping Taryn.
After that, Vivi found us a motel room with a
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