beginning. Beforeââ
âBefore the money?â
Hannah felt her back muscles tighten.
âI was going to say before he had to start traveling so much. Right after we got married, it was perfect. It was feeling like that again. Heâs been leaving me notes, we finally had sex after six weeks, and weââ
âYouâre trying to rationalize an irrational situation, Hannah. Mom did that for years. If she was here, she would tell you the same thing. Get out before it gets worse. Hannah, he could be Daddy.â
âDonât call him that.â
âOkay. He could be
Billy
, and youâre just finding out now. Or he could be worse. I know this is hard to hear, but that hooker shit, and the dream? What if heâs a psychopath and youâre just learning that now? Hell, Hannah, he could
kill
you.â
Kill
. Such a short, simple word. Like
cut
or
run
.
âMom should have done a better job disappearing with us. Changed our names, even,â Justine said. âWe should have driven all the way to California.â
Hannah thought of the night her mother had told the girls to come for a car ride. Billy wasnât home from his constructionjob yet. Hannahâs mother smiled despite the horror from the previous night, a night of open palms and screams. The station wagon had two suitcases loaded in the backâthe large yellow Samsonite ones, their hard plastic exteriors cracked and peeling. Hannah asked what they were for, and her mother had smiled and said they were taking a little trip. Justine asked if Billy was coming, and Mom said he wasnât. That it was a special girls-only trip.
Hannah had been ten.
They hadnât gone far, just a few towns away. Billy found them four days later and used his charm to lure her mother back home. Said he couldnât live without her. Said he would change. Even promised it right there in the dingy motel room, its smell a mixture of cigarettes, trucker cologne, and empty years. Billy was looking at Hannah when he said it, though his words were directed at her mother.
You know I can change. Be a better man. Be the man you need me to be. Ya know I got it in me, babe
.
He did change. He got worse. For some reason he never touched Justine or Hannah, as if that would be crossing some kind of moral boundary. How many times Hannah wished for her skin to tingle with the hot flashes of pain rather than her motherâs. But Billy saved his best verbal abuse for Hannah, cutting her into pieces with every sentence directed at her. It took another five years before they finally rid themselves of Billy, and the bitter irony was by that point their mother was so reliant on the abuse, it turned out she couldnât live without it. Today, her mother was dead. Hannah had no idea where Billy even was. Maybe still in prison. Maybe dead. Billy was just the name of a ghost that whispered in her ear from time to time.
âDallinâs never done anything like this before,â Hannah said. âAnd Dallin isnât like Billy.â
âHoly shit, Hannah. Are you seriously listening to yourself?â
But Hannah didnât hear her sister. She was gazing through her, existing deep within her own mind. She was replaying the scenes over in her mind. Rebecca winking. Dallin leering.Fighterâs stance. The sudden hand to the throat, the slam against the wall. Zoo barking. Glass breaking.
You have no idea whatâs good for you
.
A thought jolted her from the imagery.
Why had he come back home that morning?
Dallin was usually out the door by eight, and he certainly wasnât home when she had woken. But then, there he was, sneaking up on her just moments after starting to watch the video of him and the web slut.
Justine said something. Hannah only heard sound. She lifted the cocktail glass to her lips.
âWhat?â she asked.
Justine peered over Hannahâs shoulder.
âI said thereâs a guy over there. Sitting alone.
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