seemed to have such a purpose come Sunday morning. Their families were together and although they were poor, they seemed happy. Tateh hated black people. Heâd call the little children bad names in Yiddish and make fun of their parents, too. âLook at them laughing,â heâd say in Yiddish. âThey donât have a dime in their pocket and theyâre always laughing.â But he had plenty money and we were all miserable. My brother Sam, he couldnât take it and ran off as soon as he got big enough
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Sam was like a shadow. He was short and stocky, with a heavy head of hair, thick eyebrows, and heavy arms and legs. Because he was two years older than me, he had plenty power over me and Dee-Dee, yet he didnât use his older-brother status over us. He was quiet and submissive. Mameh doted on him, but Tateh put the fear of God into him. Every evening after supper Tateh would sit me and Sam down and make us study the Old Testament. Dee-Dee was too young for that, but me and Sam werenât. Heâd read the words to us and make us repeat them back to him. The book of Ecclesiastes was Tatehâs favorite. âI said in my heart, God shall judge the righteous and the wicked; for there is a time for every purpose and every work.â Thatâs Ecclesiastes. I still know those verses, but I learned them out ofâ¦not out of love for God but just out of
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what?â¦I donât know. Duty. My father was a rabbi, right? Shouldnât his kids know the Old Testament? We hated those sessions. Tateh had no patience, and heâd often stop you in the middle of your verse to scold or slap you if you showed disinterest in the Bible. Sometimes the scolding made you feel worse than the hitting. âYouâre stupid. Youâre nothing but a fool. A sinner. Youâre unredeemed before God,â heâd say. Sam was his main target. Heâd make Sam sit in the corner for hours and read Hebrew. He never showed any love toward his son
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You know, any rabbi who visited town, weâd have to put him up and feed him. Tateh would say, âYou go show such and such around town,â and weâd have to drag this old rabbi, some old fart, around and do what he told us. We hated that. Of course the alternative was Tateh would pull his belt off and skin you alive
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I liked to play dominoes with Sam when we were little, but as he got bigger, he had no time to play. Tateh worked Sam harder than me and Dee-Dee. Sam worked like a man when he was a boy. Weâd open up the store at seven A.M. and Sam would saw lumber, cut ice, stack the meats out, stock the shelves, feed the cow in the backyard, all before we left for school. He hated that store. After school he went right to work. When he wanted to get out of working in the store, he wouldnât show up after school until almost dark, and Tateh would scold and punish him by making him work even longer hours. Sam had poor grades in school and low self-esteem from all that treatment. He had few friends because he was shy, and even if he did make a friend, we werenât allowed to have gentile friends. That was forbidden
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He got bar mitzvahed when he was thirteen. They put a picture of
him and Tateh in the paper and Mameh was proud of him. That was the only time I ever remember seeing him smile, because he made his mother happy. Then a couple of years later he ran off. This was around 1934. He just left home and never came back. He was about fifteen or so. He went to Chicago and wrote Mameh a letter from there. The letter was written in English, which Mameh didnât read or speak, but I read it for her. It said, âI am fine. I got a job working as a clerk in a store.â He got a job working for Montgomery Ward or J. C. Penney, one of those stores. He didnât know a soul in Chicago and made it there on his own. Mameh was beside herself with that letter. âWrite him back,â she told me. âWrite him back
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