turning into dust This parable is told by Nicholas who understands historical necessities in order to terrify me i.e. to convince me  HOW WE WERE INITIATED To duplicitous patrons I was playing out in the street no one was minding me much I was busy making sand pies absently muttering Rimbaud once an older guy heard me why you are a poet my boy weâre just now putting together a grassroots literary movement petting my dirty little head he gave me a big lollipop he even bought me clothes in youthâs camouflage colors I hadnât had clothes as nice since my first communion short trousers and a shirt with a great sailor collar black patent leather shoes buckles and white socks the old guy took my hand and led me off to the ball there were other boys too in short trousers like me their faces clean-shaven shuffling with their feet have a good time of it lads why stand off to the side âthe older men askedâ why not form a mill wheel but we didnât want to play at tag or blindmanâs bluff we had enough of geezers we were nearly starving so quickly they sat us down around a magnificent table and gave us sweet lemonade and to each a piece of cake now boys got to their feet changed into adult clothes praising us in deep voices rapping us on the knuckles we couldnât hear a thing we couldnât feel a thing staring with eyes wide at those pieces of cake which were melting fast in our feverish hands and lifeâs first sweetness was lost in a dark sleeve  SUBSTANCE Not heads snuffed by the sharp shadow of pennants nor the mangled torsos left behind on a mowed field nor the hands holding a cold scepter and royal apple nor the heart of a bell nor a cathedralâs base contain everything those pushing carts in badly-paved outskirts escaping from a fire with a kettle of borscht and returning to ruins not to call the dead but to find the pipe of the iron stove those who starvingâlove life beaten on the faceâlove life whom itâs hard to call flowers but who are of flesh living plasma that is two arms to brace the head two legs hasty in an escape able to come by food able to breathe able to pass life under a prison wall they perish who love fine words more than oily smells but happily there are not too many of them the people endure and returning from escape routes with full sacks raise a triumphal arch for the beautiful dead  ANSWER It will be a night of deep snow thick enough to muffle steps deep shadow changing bodies into two puddles of darkness weâre lying holding our breath even thoughtâs lowest whisper if wolves donât track us down or a man in a fur coat cradling fast-shooting death on his chest weâll have to jump up and run amid a din of short dry salvos to that longed-for other shore everywhere earth is the same it teaches wisdom everywhere a man is weeping white tears mothers are cradling children the moon is beginning to rise and building us a white house It will be a night after hard waking the conspiracy of the imagination tastes of bread is light as wodka yet every dream of palm trees confirms our choice to stay here the dream is cut off by three tall rubber-and-iron men who enter check your name check for fear and order you down the stairway not allowing you to take a thing but a guardâs compassionate face Hellenic Roman medieval Indian Elizabethan Italian probably French above all a bit of Weimar Versailles we lug so many homelands on one back on one earth but the one homeland Iâm sure to keep in the singular is here where youâre trod into the mud or with a proudly ringing spade they dig a fair hole for longing  TO THE HUNGARIANS We stand on the border and hold out our arms for our brothers for you we tie a great rope of air from a broken-off cry from the fists clenched a bell is cast a tongue silent on the lookout wounded stones plead murdered water pleads we stand on the border we stand on the