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database? I’ll ask Silas. He’s meeting with the Alphas now, when he’s done, I’ll get back with you. He may insist this gets done before you leave. That way he can use that information as a bargaining chip with the European packs.”
“ Yes, Ma’am .” Although disappointed with the delay she understood it would be easier to insure damage control’s successful implementation before leaving. Otherwise, she’d need to return. She waited for Jasmine to tell her La Patron’s response at her disobedience.
“So how is it?”
Asia frowned. “ What? ”
“ Being mated? How does all that feel?”
Since Jasmine didn’t bring up her recent infraction she didn’t either. She thought about it for a moment. Neither she nor Hawke addressed being mates or talked about Gunnolf. She needed time to re-energize for both issues. “ He’s bossy, annoying, caring and is sad. I don’t know what to do with him.”
Jasmine laughed. “ His wolf and memory is returning, give the man a few days to regroup and you won’t need to know what to do with him .”
Asia scoffed. “ Sex is easy and meaningless. What I mean is Hawke throws off these emotions, like a juggler. Happy, sad, embarrassed, pleased… I’m not sure what to do with all that.”
“ Hmmm, you have forgotten some things, nothing about mates is meaningless. But I’m not going to get into that, mating’s too hard to explain. Remember when you were locked in the lab, you went through the same thing. You said you were free to feel, that could be what he is experiencing. He’s lucky you’re his mate, you can help, make his transition easier. ”
“ Perhaps …”
Jasmine sighed. “ Asia. You won’t win. Not if Hawke’s your mate. I’m a breeder and I couldn’t hold out against Silas. You’re a wolf, so is he. If you take too long, your wolf will take over. I’ve seen that and so have you. Don’t play with this .”
“ I don’t want a mate.”
“ You don’t want a mate or you don’t want Hawke?”
“Both.”
“Tough. Deal with that. Everyone else has. Don’t throw this gift into the face of the Goddess.”
“ I’m… I don’t know what to do. I’m not you. I don’t nurture. I destroy. I fight. I don’t think things through and I work better alone.” Asia hadn’t meant to expose so many of her fears, but once released she breathed easier.
“ I know sweetie. But he’s your mate, both of you will accept each other’s flaws and all. Once you bond he will see the strong, courageous woman you are and thank the Goddess daily for your love .”
“Love… I cannot love him, or anyone. The Goddess has decreed I am his mate, but I have no love to give.” Love consisted of four letters with no meaning. Nothing touched her any more. In the beginning, the killing had been hard, she’d return to the lab sick over her brutal actions. Now, she plowed her fist through flesh and bone, yanking out body parts to remove computer chips without blinking. She’d cut off a hand, break a neck, dismember anyone who stood in the way of her completing a mission and not blink. She didn’t chat, or laugh, or hang around people, she had no friends, no expectations from anyone, except her Mistress. And that was new and scary. Instead of thanking the Goddess, he would curse the day he united with such a broken mate.
“ I want you to be happy, you believe that right? ”
“Yes, I do.”
“ Good, I’ll contact you with information on the computer.”
Asia had been so engrossed with her conversation with Jasmine she’d forgotten Hawke sat in the next tree. “I asked for help in locating a computer, we may need to travel into the city.”
“ I cannot shift from my wolf or hybrid form into human, going into a populated area will be risky. ”
“ You ask me to help and then tie my hands,” she snapped.
“ I fear the chip will retake control in human form. I cannot risk that, not until the test wolves are free and I destroy the research
“ Yes, Ma’am .” Although disappointed with the delay she understood it would be easier to insure damage control’s successful implementation before leaving. Otherwise, she’d need to return. She waited for Jasmine to tell her La Patron’s response at her disobedience.
“So how is it?”
Asia frowned. “ What? ”
“ Being mated? How does all that feel?”
Since Jasmine didn’t bring up her recent infraction she didn’t either. She thought about it for a moment. Neither she nor Hawke addressed being mates or talked about Gunnolf. She needed time to re-energize for both issues. “ He’s bossy, annoying, caring and is sad. I don’t know what to do with him.”
Jasmine laughed. “ His wolf and memory is returning, give the man a few days to regroup and you won’t need to know what to do with him .”
Asia scoffed. “ Sex is easy and meaningless. What I mean is Hawke throws off these emotions, like a juggler. Happy, sad, embarrassed, pleased… I’m not sure what to do with all that.”
“ Hmmm, you have forgotten some things, nothing about mates is meaningless. But I’m not going to get into that, mating’s too hard to explain. Remember when you were locked in the lab, you went through the same thing. You said you were free to feel, that could be what he is experiencing. He’s lucky you’re his mate, you can help, make his transition easier. ”
“ Perhaps …”
Jasmine sighed. “ Asia. You won’t win. Not if Hawke’s your mate. I’m a breeder and I couldn’t hold out against Silas. You’re a wolf, so is he. If you take too long, your wolf will take over. I’ve seen that and so have you. Don’t play with this .”
“ I don’t want a mate.”
“ You don’t want a mate or you don’t want Hawke?”
“Both.”
“Tough. Deal with that. Everyone else has. Don’t throw this gift into the face of the Goddess.”
“ I’m… I don’t know what to do. I’m not you. I don’t nurture. I destroy. I fight. I don’t think things through and I work better alone.” Asia hadn’t meant to expose so many of her fears, but once released she breathed easier.
“ I know sweetie. But he’s your mate, both of you will accept each other’s flaws and all. Once you bond he will see the strong, courageous woman you are and thank the Goddess daily for your love .”
“Love… I cannot love him, or anyone. The Goddess has decreed I am his mate, but I have no love to give.” Love consisted of four letters with no meaning. Nothing touched her any more. In the beginning, the killing had been hard, she’d return to the lab sick over her brutal actions. Now, she plowed her fist through flesh and bone, yanking out body parts to remove computer chips without blinking. She’d cut off a hand, break a neck, dismember anyone who stood in the way of her completing a mission and not blink. She didn’t chat, or laugh, or hang around people, she had no friends, no expectations from anyone, except her Mistress. And that was new and scary. Instead of thanking the Goddess, he would curse the day he united with such a broken mate.
“ I want you to be happy, you believe that right? ”
“Yes, I do.”
“ Good, I’ll contact you with information on the computer.”
Asia had been so engrossed with her conversation with Jasmine she’d forgotten Hawke sat in the next tree. “I asked for help in locating a computer, we may need to travel into the city.”
“ I cannot shift from my wolf or hybrid form into human, going into a populated area will be risky. ”
“ You ask me to help and then tie my hands,” she snapped.
“ I fear the chip will retake control in human form. I cannot risk that, not until the test wolves are free and I destroy the research
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