of yellow. âYou mean about vampire legends being based on untreated diabetics?â
âYeah.â
He chuckles. âYou know, I ran that theory by a few of my colleagues. They got a kick out of it.â
âThatâs because itâs probably true.â
âIt could very well be,â Fish says. âNot that anyone will ever be able to prove it.â
âI could go off my insulin and see what happens.â
âI wouldnât recommend that!â
âJust for a few weeks. You know. See if my teeth grow.â
Fish is peering at me with his eyebrows all scrunched together. Heâs not sure Iâm kidding.
I say, âWho knows? Maybe the cure for diabetes is to drink the blood of normal people. An old Transylvanian cure?â
Fishâs eyebrows do another contortion, then he forces out a laugh: HA HA HA.
âDo you want a prescription for that?â he asks, trying to join me in the joke. I can see that he is uncomfortable. That makes me mad, so I just stare back at him without smiling. He looks down at my chart for a few seconds, then changes the subject.
âWhat was the paper you wrote that got you in so much trouble?â
âI just wrote out my theory. And added some background information. You knowâstuff about Vlad the Impaler and Elizabeth Bathory. Kind of nasty stuff. But mostly I just described how this diabetic girl turns into a vampire and eats her neighborsâ stew and then gets burned to death by some angry villagers.â
Fish nods. âSounds gruesome. I take it your teacher didnât like your theory?â
âWell, she called my parents⦠and you know how
they
are. They already think Iâm some sort of bad seed, what with my diabetes and being a teenager and all.â
âYou really think that?â
âI think they donât know what to make of me.â
âOkay, you wrote a paper that didnât go over so well. How come youâre having so much trouble in your other classes?â
âEnnui,â
I say.
âOn wee?â
âOui.â
Fish laughs. Itâs not that funny, but I laugh too. Itâs been a while.
I say, âLook, schoolâs just really tedious right now. I got straight As for, like, three years in a row. I donât see why everybody freaks out if I slack off for one semester. Whatâs the big deal? School is boring.â
âYou know, itâs not such an awful thing to be bored.â
âEasy for you to say. Youâre old.â
âI wasnât always. Look at it this way. School is boring no matter how you cut it, right?â
âMostly.â
âWould it be any more boring if you did the work?â
âIt might not be more boring, but it would be more work.â
Fish says nothing, but his look accuses me. I feel pressure building up behind my eyeballs.
âI just donât want to study all the time. Iâm sick of it. Itâs too hard, and itâs not fair.â
âWhy is it not fair?â He seems genuinely puzzled.
âMy parents took away my computer. Plus, I have to deal with insulin reactions, and my blood sugars going crazy every time I get my period, and all the rest of it. My parents donât get it at all. My momâs on this huge guilt trip because I got diabetes and my dad, all he can think about when he looks at me is how come Iâm not a boy. You know how come I donât have any brothers or sisters? Iâll tell youâmy mom actually told me thisâshe said the reason they quit having kids was because they didnât want to risk bringing anotherdiabetic child into the world. Can you imagine her saying that to me? Thatâs my mom.â
My eyes are stinging. Hot wet streaks run down my face. Iâm sure my cheeks are black with makeup.
Fish is staring at me, his face a cautious blank. He probably wishes he was on the golf course or the moon or anyplace else in the universe, but
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