dressed properly to go anywhere or to check her hair. Connor had her tucked in the car, and was speeding along the highway.
"Where are we going?” she asked again, her arms folded across her chest.
He stroked her cheek, but she pulled away. He grunted. “A park I know of, outside the city, where I sometimes run when I want a change in scenery. A'isha, I—"
"You what?"
"I thought we had something, but you're pushing me away. I know you're afraid, but I'm here for you. I have the resources, the training..."
"Everything you'll lose if you keep seeing me, Connor."
"So I should fuck you, and walk away, leaving you to fend for yourself. Is that it?” He took her hand, threading his fingers through hers and holding tight when she would have resisted. “We'll be careful. I don't want to risk my job anymore than you want me to. Believe me, I love it. I'm cut out for it. But I've also had it with women who just don't work with me. I'm not making a declaration of love here."
"Thanks. I knew it wasn't any more than good sex,” she grumbled. “I didn't need the reminder."
"Damn, you're infuriating!"
She laughed. The tension broke without warning. “So are you, but I bet you've heard that a lot. Look, I already know I don't have much to lose. I didn't have much in the first place. But you have a lot more going for you. I don't want to screw it up.” She held up a hand. “Before you say anything, I'm not coming down on myself. Sorry about that whole episode where I lost my mind. I think I actually did for a second there."
He kissed her hand. “You shouldn't apologize for that. This is a lot to deal with for anyone."
"Yeah, well anyway, I think it's not smart to see each other right now. And I do believe"—she glared at him—"you're still thinking with your small head. You want me, and you're not willing to give me up. Plus you're a man. Guys take more risks."
"Did you just stereotype me?"
"What if I did?” She smirked.
"That's almost a smile."
"I think you have dead bodies in your closet."
"What?” He laughed, taking an exit off the highway and slowing for the light ahead. “Where did that come from?"
"You're too good to be true, so there has to be some deep-seated flaw in you. Not that I'm looking for it."
"Uh-huh."
He parked. A'isha followed him out of the parking lot to a nearby trail. Like they had been doing it for years, they clasped hands and walked along side by side. A'isha peered up at him, and he kissed her.
"I just figured it out!” she declared. At his blank expression, she went on, ticking off his flaws on her fingers. “You're stubborn and bossy. You don't take no for an answer. You don't respect a woman's decision to be old and lonely."
"Okay, okay.” He laughed. “Got it."
"If you're forcing me to date you, or be your lover—whichever—then I'm going to have to know more about you. Ever been married? Any kids? Siblings?"
This time he ticked off the facts. “No, I've never been married. No kids, and I have a sister, but she doesn't speak to me much."
"Why not?"
"Long story.” His handsome face reddened. “I told her, her second husband was gay."
A'isha stopped walking and burst out laughing. “Oh goodness, you did not tell her that."
He nodded, shame written all over his face. A'isha felt sorry for him. She nuzzled in close and rested her head on his chest, stroking his back. “I guess you're not perfect after all. I can breathe a sigh of relief. Do you hate gays then?"
His eyes widened. “Of course not. I just happen to know that this man in particular is just using my sister. I tried to present her with my evidence, and let's just say, she's too in love right now.” Despite his flippant attitude, pain flashed in his eyes. The rift with his sister hurt him.
"She'll come to her senses sooner or later. Look at it this way, for now, she's very happy. We should cherish those times; guard them like a precious gem."
"Hmm, you're probably right."
A'isha hadn't noticed how
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