was different. For some reason he made her feel safe. Like she could tell him anything he wanted to know.
“My mom. I haven’t talked to you about this at all, I don’t think, but I was barely twelve years old when she died. Needless to say we were very close. She was my role model and everywhere she went, I followed and she loved cooking for us. She’d say that was how she showed her love, you know. And it was true. She loved us with every single meal that she cooked. When she died, I kept all her hand written cookbooks and took care of cooking for my dad and my little sister. It might sound silly but it always made my sister and I feel like mom was right there with us. Cooking was one of the ways that I kept her alive inside. I don’t know if any of this makes any sense to you.”
“I understand more than you know Tessa.”
She gazed into his warm eyes and she could tell that he meant it. That was when she remembered what she knew of his past.
“That’s right. You lost both your parents when you were that same age didn’t you.”
“Just about. I was about a year older though.”
“I can’t imagine how hard that was. As least I had one parent.”
“True, but I did have a really loving grandmother that took good care of me.”
“Good. I’m glad you had someone there to take care of you.”
“Oh yeah. And then there’s Ms. Celia and Libby. I consider them my adopted family. All in all, I didn’t have it so bad. I just always knew that there were some pieces missing. I still love what I had though. I mean, some people say that they would change the past if they could go back and do so but I don’t know if I would.”
“Really? I’ve probably wondered so many times what life would have been like if she had still been there.”
“I get that but what about everything else? Like Ms. Celia and Libby. I’m sure you have somebody like that in your life. Maybe your relationship with your dad and sister was stronger as a result. To have her back, you’d have to take a chance at sacrificing the good things you have now.”
“I never looked at it like that. I guess you’re pretty smart.”
“Yeah, but that’s my grandma’s. When they first passed, I told her that I’d wished I’d gone with them. She would tell me that it wasn’t what they would have wanted and it wasn’t what God wanted for me either. Then she would go on to tell me that I would come to love the life I had and the people who were in it. I always thought that she was just saying it to pep up her grandson. It wasn’t until just now at this table that I finally understand it.”
“Really?”
“Yes. Honestly, there are some things in life that you don’t want to sacrifice. It hasn’t been easy but it’s been worth it. Taking care of this place has allowed me to help out so many people. The kids I coach. I was able to make sure Ms. Celia always had a roof over her head. Even meeting you. I wouldn’t want to give that up either.”
She noticed he’d stopped talking and when she turned her head to look at him, he was staring right back into her eyes.
“You’re extremely special to me Tessa. I want you to always know that.”
“Th-thank you Connor. You’re special to me too.”
They stopped talking and smiled at each other for a few seconds before Tessa got up from the table unable to take the silence between them that said so much. She clumsily grabbed the mittens off the counter.
“Well the muffins smell done.”
She walked over towards the oven to take them out when he came up behind her.
“Let me get them for you.”
She quickly turned back to him.
“Oh don’t worry I’ve…”
She started to slip on the floor. Thankfully Connor was behind her before she reached the ground.