for a cuddle sandwich. I knew Mahiti was very horny but he told me he wanted us to make love together after Toy left in the morning. We did and it was magical. Afterwards we devoured a big breakfast I had sent up and we talked. “You appear to be very comfortable with Toy now Lover.” “Mmm, I think he is very cute and I love the occasional threesomes we have. I don‟t feel threatened by him anymore either, not even after last night‟s shows when you were very tender to him even though it was supposed to be a rape scene.” “Yes I know, I couldn‟t deliberately hurt him, he is such a gentle little boy, I find it difficult to believe he is legal. When I move into my apartment Mahiti, how would you feel if I invite Toy to take the second bedroom? It would save him so much money as he doesn‟t turn tricks.” “Oh yes Kit that would be nice.”
“What about when you return to Uni. and there are just he and I there?”
“Would you make love to him sometimes?”
“Probably, and let him sleep with me.” “What if I say I don‟t want that Kit?”
“Then it won‟t happen. None of it, because I don‟t think I would trust myself not to touch him if he was only in the next room.”
“I guess it doesn‟t matter either way. If you want Toy you will have him, with or without my consent.”
I nodded because of course he was correct, it would be so easy to do it with Toy anytime I wanted.
Tears sprung to his eyes and he looked down before he said, “I‟m going to lose you to Toy aren‟t I Kit?”
“I thought you were comfortable with our relationship?”
“I was until you proposed him moving in when I am not there.”
I did nothing until he looked up at me again, the tears now coursing down his face.
“Will it hurt you very much when it happens?”
He looked shocked now along with the sadness.
“You know it will, so you think it will happen as well?”
I laughed and moved across the room to take him in my arms. “How many times do I have to tell you? I love you so much. When you made love to Toy the first time I thought I might lose you to him and I was so sad. I tried hard to hide it because I didn‟t want to keep you out of pity. I think I am going to love you for the remainder of my life. I don‟t even want to think about you not being my lover. Toy is so cute he almost takes my breath away everytime I look at him, but he is never going to replace you, never. Do you understand that?” “Yes Kit.”
He didn‟t sound very convinced so I just shrugged. I guessed we would have to let time prove my words.
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Part 5 My Second Dose of Trouble I started to get quite busy at work and my apartment was completed. Tom was a marvel finding good people to help me choose furnishings, all at massive discounts so that within my budget I had a beautifully furnished and equipped two bedroom apartment. It was during this period, about two months after Toy arrived on the scene that I told Adisak I was not going to do the shows for a month or so. We worked out some very raunchy acts for the other boys and produced a poster to say I would be back with even more erotic and sexy shows. Despite Toy still being there the crowds tailed off making it certain that it was me pulling them in, size queens the lot, te he. Toy took a couple of weeks off during that time as well to go home to see his family. The biggest change in my life though was Mahiti returning to university. I very quickly became lonely and realised how much I missed him. I wandered in to the club a few nights and caught the early show, Am and Chou came round to my apartment a few times during the week and we chatted, but no sex. I was living for the weekends when Mahiti was home, we made love almost nonstop when neither of us was working and I became more of a basket case thinking about longer partings when my job ended or he moved to a job at the end of his university time. I had just finished