appeared with Evâs beer. She took it from him and said, âThanks, baby,â before taking a deep drink. Doyle turned his attention back to Lindsay.
âWhere are we going?â Char asked.
âLindsay and I are going to wander for a few.â Charâs face fell. Anger crept into her expression. âI want to give the new girl the deluxe tour.â
Once they were north of the bonfire, out ofearshot of the others, Ev slowed her pace. She drank from her beer and looked at Lindsay.
âSorry about Doyle. Heâs always around. The inland girls usually like him.â
âHeâs kind of old.â
âYeah,â Ev replied with a laugh. âHe is, I guess, but heâll always be around, like the ocean and the sand.â
âHeâs just part of the scene?â
âTotally. And the scene never changes. Thatâs why I hate it here.â
âIt seems cool enough,â Lindsay said. She was trying to be nice. She didnât really know what to think about it.
âYeah,â Ev said. âItâs cool if you like quicksand.â
âQuicksand?â
âYou know, in those movies where people get stuck in it, and they struggle, and it sucks them down faster? Thatâs what Redlands is like. Mel and Tee are already up to their necks in it. Theyâll both meet boys and get jobs at some grocery store or restaurant and have a bunch of kids. Itâs like already written in stone. Charâs got a little time yet.â
Lindsay hadnât expected this burst of philosophy. She didnât think Ev was particularly deep,what with all her party girl talk and loud attitude.
âIâve been planning to get out since I was a kid,â the platinum blonde continued. âI just knew I couldnât stay here. So I got my GED and I worked at that crappy Dairy Queen on Harperâs and I bailed, because I knew I had to pull myself out. My girls arenât like me, though. They think they can wait and something will happen or someone will come along and save them. The problem is, they think Iâm the one who can save them now.â
âDonât you want to help them?â
Ev stopped walking. The night breeze ruffled her straight hair, blew it across her face. She pushed it back with her hand. âI canât,â she said. âTheyâre a part of this place, just like Doyle. Theyâre deep in the quicksand, and if I try to pull them out, theyâll drag me back in. My manager totally helped me see that.â
Now Lindsay understood. Ev was just quoting something an adult had told her. She hadnât created the words, but she certainly believed in them. This left Lindsay shaken. Ev seemed harder to her now. Colder. How could she not want to help her friends?
âYou could talk to them,â Lindsay offered. âMaybetheyâd realize there was more out there.â
âAll we did when we were little girls was talk about getting away from here. I did it, but theyâre afraid to even try. The fact is, some people just canât be saved.â
Lindsay didnât want to believe that.
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Lindsay lay in bed, staring at the ceiling. The party had been fun, she guessed. By the time she and Ev got back, most everyone was wasted. She didnât know anyone and didnât know what to expect from them, so she kept quiet, just sipping at her beer, never letting herself totally relax. Seeing Evâs entourage after their chat totally depressed her. They seemed like blind prisonersâtrapped but unable to see the bars around them. The fact is, some people just canât be saved. The older guy, Doyle, followed her around, always smiling, always nodding his head like he was agreeing with things she hadnât said. When he spoke, it was always some lame double entendre meant to sound charming or cool. At a little past midnight, Lindsay decided to bail.
Now she stared at the ceiling. Kateâs party would be
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