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saying that how well our relationship is going is making you nervous?"
                I sighed. "If I'm being completely honest, kind of. It's just -- things could not possibly be any better right now. We're very much in love, your parents seem to have completely accepted me -- I just feel like I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop. Like, what's gonna happen to mess everything up?"
                Benito brushed my lips with a kiss. "Nothing."
                "You don't know that for sure, though. And I'm just getting this feeling in my gut that something's about to happen. It's just making me nervous that I don't know what it is."
                Benito brushed my mouth with another kiss, his brown eyes amber in a shaft of sunlight slanting in through the window. "I think there might be a reason for why you feel this way."
                "What is it?"
                He caressed the side of my face, his fingers warm and slow. "I think you haven't always had it easy in life -- and actually, I know that, just based on things you've told me. And I think when a person hasn't always had it easy -- when they're used to having rough stuff come their way with regularity -- it makes them feel like that’s inevitable. That more bad things are bound to happen, because they always have in the past. So when things are good, and when you're happy, you can't let yourself enjoy it completely because you're still on guard. Still ready to fight the adversity like you always have. Does this make any sense?"
                I nodded, my head in the crook of Benito's arm. "A lot."
                "It's understandable that all this would give you a sense of nervousness. Very understandable."
                I thought back on other times in my life when I'd been really happy, like when I'd graduated college and accepted my first teaching job, realizing I'd been nervous about something bad happening then, too.
                "I think I've been this way my whole life."
                "I don't blame you. But I want you to know that you don't have to feel that way anymore. You don't have to feel nervous about anything. I'm here to help you deal with anything that might happen down the road in life, and together, we can get through it. But you know --" He paused, smiling. "Sometimes people just get to a point in their lives where they enter a long stretch of happiness. Nothing bad happens; they just get their happily-ever-after. And it's entirely possible that that might be happening right now for us. So try not to be nervous. Try not to let that feeling spoil the good. Just enjoy it. Because you absolutely deserve it."
                I smiled, my heart lifting, and gave Benito a long, lingering kiss. "You always know just what to say to make me feel better."
                He soon got in the shower, and I snuggled in bed a while longer, telling myself that he was right, that sometimes life could just be happy, and perfect, and it didn't mean that something bad was going to happen. I resolved to try to shake my feeling of nervousness and just accept all the happiness in my life with open arms.
                After making me breakfast, Benito left to meet up with a business associate for coffee. I showered and dressed and had just started my regular Sunday cleaning of the apartment when I heard a knock at the door. Puzzled, I set a spray bottle of glass cleaner down and turned in the direction of the door. I wasn't expecting anyone and wondered if the knock had actually been on the neighbor's door. But then a knock sounded again, louder this time, and definitely on my door.
                I crept over to the door and looked through the peephole, stunned to see Elza standing on the other side. Curiously, she stood staring straight ahead, her expression somehow not as warm as it had been the night before. And in fact, something