Sitting in the desk's chair, I looked out of the hotel room's window not really seeing anything. It was full dark now and we would be leaving soon. I still had to pack, but I was hoping Rebecca would have come by now. She hadn't yet, but I told myself not to give up. There was time. "Are you packed?" Stephen call ed from the door as he came in. I did not answer. He could see for himself. I was too lost in my own thoughts to pay attention to him as he began telling me to get started. I knew we were leaving soon and I had a feeling I would be leaving without my mate. Hope was slowly fading into hopelessness. I didn't know how I was going to live on without her. I was also pissed to know Logan had been feeding on her that whole time I was imprisoned. Did he treat her as he did me? I asked myself. Oh God! I didn't want to think about her going through that. "Did you know?" I choked on the words. My throat felt tight with emotion. Stephen stopped whatever he was saying and asked, "Know what?" "Did you know she was forced to feed Logan?" Stephen's silence made me look at him. His guilt showed and I narrowed my eyes. "Yes, I knew. If the guards that were locked up had mates or lovers , he took them. He threatened them into feeding them. You knew that" "Why didn't you stop him?" I shouted. "Drake that time was so hard to get through. We were all just trying to survive. Yes, I feel guilty for not doing something, but at the time there was nothing I could do." He pleaded with me to understand. I did not want to understand right then. I wanted to be angry with someone. Logan was dead so Stephen would have to do. "Why didn't you tell me? All this time, I thought she left me on purpose. Why didn't you tell me she thought I was dead?" "I honestly did not know she thought that. There was a time we all thought you were dead. I wasn't one of the guards that were chosen to stay with the Master. We didn't really know much of what was going on until Logan was dead and they released you. By then she was gone." He shook his head. "I'm sorry." "I thought she was saf e Stephen. Logan promised me he would leave her alone if I agreed to be turned," I said in agony of what she had been through. "Now she's afraid of me because of what I am." Stephen walked toward s me and placed a comforting hand on my shoulder. "She'll show Drake. I saw how she reacted to seeing you alive. She loves you." "No, " I said looking away. "I dream walked with her today. She was too afraid. She'll never accept what I am now." "Give it time Drake. You never know, she might show up at the last minute." I began to disagree , but he stopped me. "No man, listen. Even if she doesn't show up tonight, we live only a few hours away. You will see her again. You can change her mind." He left me to my packing shortly after. I felt like I was moving in slow motion getting my things together. I had so hoped I wouldn't be leaving here without her. I did not really believe what Stephen said about me changing her mind later. I felt like if she didn't take this step now, she would never be ready. I grabbed my bag and headed out. Stephen was waiting for me outside my room. "You ready?" He asked. "Not really, but let's go." We walked out of the hotel in silence. My bags were put away and we began climbing into the limo. I could feel the depression already setting in. The doors shut and it was not long before we pulled away from the curb. I closed my eyes and laid my head back. This was going to be a long ride, I thought.
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"Sean!" I shouted trying to get the man's attention. I had spent the last few hours looking for him. When I could n't find him I went to my room for awhile to get some things and change my clothes. I immediately went out searching for him again. I finally just saw him walking out of the woods putting his shirt on. He must have just come back from a run. He lifted his head up at my shout and jogged