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apartment,” I said looking around the beautiful well furnished apartment.
    “Yeah the one that I got for you along with the car outside, but yet I never asked you for nothing but now I’m in need of your help and you’re saying no?”
    I was afraid of the pressure I was in. I should have known I was going to have to pay everything back somehow.
    “You… you…you can have it back,” I stuttered.
    “I don’t want it back, I did it for the love I have for you and you can’t even do the same for me?”
    “Sorry, I can’t do this Latif. I don’t want to share my body with anyone but you.”
    “It’s ok, I wouldn’t mind,” he said.
    I put my head down questioning if he really loved me. If he loved me, he would have a problem with another man going inside of me.
    “Listen,” he said as he held on to my face to look him dead in his eyes, “Picture me inside of you, making love to you while they inside of you. I promise it won’t be long.”
    “Latif, please I can’t,” he let go of my face.
    “Forget it, you don’t love me,” he said as he walked out of the house slamming the door behind him.
    I went back to the couch not knowing what to do. Yes I would do anything for him, except for sharing my body with anyone else. I didn’t know what to do. I had no friends or my mother to lean on for advice or support. So I sat and thought real hard and I came to the realization that I had no choice but to do this for him, he had been there for me.
    “How could he use the love I have for him against me?”
    Tears dripped out of my eyes pondering the things he said earlier, “I hope he is happy.”
    I went to work that day feeling highly disturbed, but secured knowing I wanted to do whatever I could to make him happy. So from that day forward I started giving myself to men to please the man I loved. I started drifting away from getting myself together to get Ella back, my lifestyle started to show. Still, I surely visited Ella every now and then. When Ella’s foster parents saw me, they complained about my lifestyle.
    “You can’t be seeing your child like this.”
    “Like what?” I said.
    “Everybody knows what you do and I thought the reason we took her from you was for you to get your life together.”
    “Oh, all of a sudden people know me? Now that I’m doing bad; well for your information, I am getting myself together and getting my child soon, it’s passed nine months already.”
    “I know because she will be one next week.”
    “I…I know that,” I said stuttering because I had forgotten Ella’s birthday. “And I will be here on her birthday.”
    “I don’t think you should, I think you should focus on getting yourself together.”
    “Don’t tell me what I should do when it comes to my child, I will be here for her birthday.”
    “If you say so.”
    “What day?”
    “Saturday, at noon.”
    “Ok, I will be here earlier to help set up.”
    “We already have that covered.”
    “Ok so what do you need from me for her birthday?”
    “Nothing.”
    “You don’t need any extra money?”
    “Trust me we don’t need your dirty money.”
    “Don’t judge me because you don’t know me,” I said going back in my defense mode.
    “I would love to keep it that way and if I could have my way, you would never set foot in my house.”
    “Mmm, wow I will make that happen for you soon I promise.”
    “Let’s see how that will work out.”
    “What do you mean by that?”
    “Just be here if you can, if not she will understand I’m sure,” she slammed the door in my face.
    “Ok,” I said knowing that she didn’t want me there. But this was my child and my goal was not to miss her first birthday.
    I went to see her on her birthday and Ella treated me like I wasn’t her mother. She cried for her temporary mother to rescue her from me. It pained my heart every time she rejected me. I couldn’t hold my focus on the streets constantly thinking about Ella rejecting me. Latif started to provide