her thoughts, Etty said, âWe could try crossing by night, I suppose. Follow the stars.â
âAnd blunder straight into some peasantâs farmyard,â Rowan said, although her deeper fear was for Dove. What if the pony put a hoof into some unseen rabbit hole, broke her leg?
Etty nodded with her usual serenity. âWell, weâve made it this far without starving or being captured.â
âOr stepping in a man trap,â Lionel added.
âOr eating the snakes or toads,â Beau put in, âand because our noses are fastened on our faces not upside down, we no drown in the rain either, la?â
While the others muffled their laughter with their hands, Rowan tried to smile, but could not. Yes, they had come this far aliveâbut also without seeing or hearing anything of Robin Hood.
Eyes on the lavender line of forest on the far horizon, Ro said slowly, âI wish I knew where my father was.â
Etty said, âWherever he is, likely heâs wishing the same of you.â
âThatâs just it.â Rowan turned in the saddle to face her friend. âHeâll go to the rowan grove, find it abandonedââ
âProbably he already has,â Etty said.
ââand heâll be worried, thinking maybe Iâm captured, searching for meââ
âProbably he already is,â Etty said.
âBut he would never dream Iâd go so far ...â Rowan let the thought trail away, but she knew Robin would expect to find her in or around Sherwood Forest.
As usual, it was Rook who asked the hard question. âDo you want to turn back?â
And Rowan saw how the question raised hopeful heads all around her. Even Tykell, sitting on his own bushy tail, looked to her for an answer. But she did not answer, for her heart felt hollow and she did not know what to do.
Looking over her shoulder toward Sherwoodâs familiar shelter, she scanned the woodland around her.
Violets bloomed now, a carpet of velvety blossoms and heart-shaped leaves between the trees. Rowan wondered whether violets were good to eat.
Or fern fiddleheads. Many of them thrust up between sparse, slender trees. There were no mighty oaks and elms in this grove, only smaller, slimmer maples and poplars and lindens.
Nearby in the copse grew a rowan.
This was to be expected, for rowan trees, far smaller than oaks, grew commonly near the edges of oak forest, where sunlight could reach them. But this rowan seemed not to be thriving. On some of its branches, buds promised foliage and flowers and fruit during the season ahead. But many of its limbs jutted dry, gaunt and the color of ashes, lifeless.
Rowan looked to her own hands, gaunt and pale on Doveâs reins.
She studied the rowan tree again. Half alive. Half dead.
The way she felt.
And feeling that wayâincomplete, despairingâhad already made her remember that other time, two years ago, when she had felt hollow at heart, desperate because she had needed to know about her father.
What she had done then was what she should do now.
But now, as then, the thought made her shake with fear.
Nevertheless, trembling, she slipped down off of Dove. âLeave me here for the night,â she told Rook, Etty and the others. âCome back for me in the morning.â She handed the ponyâs reins to Beau. âTake Dove with you.â
âWhat?â On Rookâs face Rowan saw a look she scarcely recognized there: surprise.
âLeave me here and come back for me in the morning,â Rowan repeated, trying to sound calm and patient even though she was not. Not patient. And far from calm.
âBut why?â Etty begged.
âSo that I can know what to do. So that I can answer you. â
Beau gawked, for once speechless. Lionel exclaimed, âWe canât just leave you alone!â
âWhy not?â
âBecause you can barely walk! And anything, anybody couldâ â
With a gesture of her thin
Suzan Butler
A Noble Dilemma
Alvania Scarborough
Trevor Scott
Carole Nelson Douglas
Sherrill Bodine
Bill Pronzini
Cynthia Joyce Clay
Lutishia Lovely
David King