bunk with his elbows on his knees. Above him are several lines, crosshatched, as if heâs been marking the days heâs been imprisoned. A dialogue bubble reads âMama Tried.â
âI know that one,â I say. âMy dad and I used to listen to old country-western music all the time. Thatâs from a Merle Haggard song. Itâs about a kid whose mom tried her best, but he still ended up in prison when he was twenty-one.â
Michael nods, looking faintly impressed. âI had to look it up. But yeah, thatâs what itâs from.â
I pull out my camera, but the cell is so narrow I have to back up close to Michael to get the shot. He could have moved, but he doesnât, and I can feel the heat of him. I try to concentrate on the picture, but Iâm distracted by his warm breath onthe back of my neck. I wish I got a mint from Trina. My skin buzzes from the closeness.
After taking several shots, I have no more excuse to stand so close to him so I walk over to the back of the cell and examine the green flaky paint that looks like some sort of surrealistic painting, all swirly and textured.
âMy mom never tried one goddamn day in her life,â Michael says suddenly.
I turn to look at him, surprised by the bitterness in his voice.
âMy mom never wanted me, I donât think. I mean, it was cool when I was a kidâI was like an accessoryâbut once I got older, all she cares about is shopping and drinking wine with her friends. I donât think she even cared that much when my dad died, âcause she got to spend more time doing what
she
wanted.â
Michael looks away. I wonder what it would be like to have your dad commit suicide. I still feel guilty about my dad dying, and I know it wasnât my fault.
Logically
, I know that, but it still feels like maybe I did something wrong. But Michaelâs dad killed himself. How hard would that be to take?
âIâm going to get into a school as far away from here as possible, and after I graduate, Iâm gone. I feel like that guy.â Michael points at the picture of the inmate. âIâm counting my time, waiting to get out of prison.â
I donât know what to say. I hate it when I canât think of anything to say. Heâs opening up to me and I got
nothing
.
He looks at me, and I can almost feel the touch of his eyes, like the tip of a dark feather drifting over me.
âI think itâs cool you want to be an architect,â I say; âIâm sure youâll get into an awesome school.â God, âcoolâ and âawesomeâ in the same sentence. He must think Iâm an idiot.
âWhatâs your deal?â he asks. âWhat do you do?â
For a horrible moment, my mind is blank. What
do
I do? What could I possibly have to say that would interest him? My life is so boring, itâs surprising it doesnât put
me
to sleep. âI write!â I blurt out. âI like to write.â
He nods slowly and then says, âAnyway, thereâs more to see. And I want a beer.â He leaves abruptly, and I scramble to keep up.
Itâs dark. Too dark. My breath is coming in quick pants as I follow after the shadow that used to be Michael. I canât even tell for sure if itâs him or not anymore. My feet catch on planks of wood and metal bars, and an odd mewling sound comes from inside me. I stop and rummage in my bag for my flashlight. Once I flick it on I feel a whole lot better. Michael is at the top of the stairs by the puffer fish, waiting for me.
I go toward him and he disappears down the dark stairway. By the time I get to the top, heâs gone. How did he get down so fast?
The walls are crawling with mold and seem way too narrow. The stairs look unsafe. Did I really think it was a good idea to climb them?
Really?
Taking a deep breath, I start down. I hear a crack underneath my foot and throw myself sideways against the wall for
Amanda Hocking
Jody Lynn Nye
RL Edinger
Boris D. Schleinkofer
Selena Illyria
P. D. Stewart
Ed Ifkovic
Jennifer Blackstream
Ceci Giltenan
John Grisham