there.â
âMick the quick,â Ira says, and my father glances at me, embarrassed.
Tiki leans over the end of the stage and points at Harvey. He laughs, reaching for his wallet. Four singles land at her feet and she pulls the nightgown over her head and hurls it. It lands on Harveyâs shoulder.
âWhere are the pictures?â Ira yells as Tiki swings over us, gripping the gold pole.
âSheâs wonderful!â says Harvey. He searches for more cash and this time finds a five. Tiki sits on the end of thestage, legs spread. Suddenly Brandi isnât interested anymore. She dramatically turns her back to Tiki and her very open legs, wanting all of us to know sheâs not impressed. The stripteaser versus the stripper. Brandi looks at my dad, whoâs leaning to his right, trying to hear Ira.
âThis girlâs a stupid whore,â Brandi says, reaching for her cigarettes. âNine bucks on the stage and sheâs showing off her cervix.â
Leo arrives with drinks and brings me a beer.
âDavid,â my father says. âRun upstairs to my office and grab the pictures of Ira in Acapulco. Theyâve gotta be in one of the boxes.â
âIâll go,â Brandi says.
âNo, no, itâs okay,â I say, as Tiki goes down on all fours for Harvey, aiming her ass cheeks at the rafters. I head for the stairs, where the music is lower, and pass two other girls watching Tiki do her thing. In my fatherâs office, on the wall to the right of the door, are about fifty or more signed photographs of various burlesquers and some men too, like Lou Goldstein, the Simon Says King of Grossingerâs. Some are black and white and nearly all are posed shots, the women in frilly feathered garb, their heads back, shoulders exposed.
The boxes are in the closet, just where we left them. To find Ira in here might be impossible. I lift a pile and thumb through them: Debra with pail on beach, Debra in yellow bathing suit with kitten on the front. My mother asleep, someone at a pumpkin patch, my dad in high school, awoman I donât know, more Deb on the beach. A woman in silhouette, another woman kneeling, lifting money from a stageâsheâs in a headdress and the pieces, the feathers are lit at the tips with a distant blue light. The woman has my motherâs face, the profile too, and itâs in these seconds that it all becomes clear to me. The veins behind my knees start tingling as I lift the picture up to my face.
Itâs her. It is. Sheâs got a thick, shiny layer of makeup on, cartoonish eyelashes. Her breasts look huge and her legs are way longer than they are. âItâs her,â I say, to no one in the room. âItâs you.â Of course. My first thought is to confront her. To find her and hand the Polaroid to her. I stuff the picture in the front of my pants and turn out of the office. The very moment I put my foot on the staircase, my ankle turns and Iâm falling and rolling and trying to stop myself but canât. Whew, when I finally settle, I have my back up against the wall and Iâm not quite at the bottom. My mother was a stripper. Jesus Christ. The two girls from before are there and helping me stand.
âYou okay?â one says as I make my way down to my father. Tiki is sitting on Harveyâs lap. On stage is a black woman in a Cleopatra outfit and the music is âBoogie Shoes.â Ira is whispering into Brandiâs ear and my father has his drink tipped to his mouth.
âI couldnât find it,â I say, close to his ear.
âNot one of Ira?â he asks.
âI need to borrow your car.â
âWhat?â
âI need to go get my things from home, some clothes and my cameras. I donât have anything.â
He nods and puts his hand on my cheek. âIâll get you some clothes. You should probably stay away from Jersey for a while. Aside from school. Iâll take you to
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