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and lie in bed and hopefully fall asleep and dream it again.’
    ‘What will you dream?’
    ‘Of me pulling your dress over your head and seeing you naked for the first time, of you taking me in your mouth, the way you tasted when I first pushed my tongue into you, and how, as soon as you came, I came in your mouth too. Kissing you afterwards, then being inside you for the first time . . .’
    ‘What a rude dream!’
    ‘Can you come tonight as well?’
    ‘In a dream?’
    ‘No, for real. Can I see you tonight?’
    ‘Yes.’
    ‘We’ll stay in. I’ll cook. We’ll go to sleep early. We’ll sleep for ten hours.’
    ‘OK.’
    ‘The code is C25E,’ said Luke. Nicole wrote down the number. Her pen was white, decorated with dots that matched exactly the dark green ink. Love someone, thought Luke, love their possessions.
    ‘Are you not working today?’
    ‘I don’t have to go in till later. There’s very little to do.’
    ‘No football?’
    ‘I’m too tired. Aren’t you tired?’
    ‘Yes.’
    She kissed him on the mouth, stood up and slalomed through the thicket of café chairs, shoving one with her hip, only slightly, once. He watched her go. Tennis shoes. Tanned legs. Lime green dress. Bare arms. Long black hair. Her.
    He would always love watching her walk away, seeing her disappear into the Métro, around a corner or becoming lost in the crowd. Her floaty walk. Even when, years later, they parted for the last time, he would be the one to watch her walk away. It would be up to her to stand, to look at him and walk away, feeling his eyes on her: a final concession.
    A bicycle messenger wearing a luminous bib – Speedy Boys – came in and ordered a coffee. The sun squeezed between clouds, flooding the café terrace with hot light. A bus shuddered to a halt and passengers began spilling out. Spotting a gap in traffic, a little dog wagged across the road. Luke remembered the utter passivity of the previous night, how neither of them had needed to make the slightest move towards each other, how, instead, they had simply waited . . .
    He finished his second coffee and then returned to the apartment, opening the door slowly as if not to disturb someone who was sleeping. It was exactly as he had left it but it was changed, utterly, from how it had been the morning before, from any morning except this one. The curtains were open. Sun streamed through the dust-patterned window. One of the two towels was hung over the bathroom door, the other was in a lump on the back of a chair. The coffee cups were on the floor. Nearby were his socks. Wax from the candles had solidified in a saucer. There was no sign of her clothes. She had taken them all with her. The quilt was piled up at the end of the bed. The sheets were wrinkled, the pillows still bore the dent of their heads. Luke went into the bathroom and saw, in the basin, two hair grips: hers.
    The door-bell jolted him out of his sleep. He opened the door. Her hair was tied up. She held a bike light in each hand. She was wearing a suede jacket, a loose skirt.
    ‘Did you dream there was someone at the door?’
    ‘As it happens, yes.’
    He stood aside to let her in, closed the door behind them. She put her arms round him, kissed him, pressed the rear light to his left ear and the front to his right. Then she turned them on, like electrodes.
    ‘Bzzzzzzz!’
    ‘You cycled.’
    ‘It was a little chilly. I should have worn trousers.’
    ‘I’m glad you didn’t. Would you like the heating on?’
    ‘No, I’m OK.’
    ‘How are you?’
    ‘Tired.’
    ‘Me too. I was asleep when you rang the door. I fell asleep, I mean. I’m still waking up.’
    ‘I brought some nice wine.’
    ‘How kind. Would you like a glass?’
    ‘Yes.’ She kissed him on the mouth. ‘Your mouth tastes sleepy,’ she said.
    ‘Not nice?’
    ‘Yes, is nice. Nice and sleepy.’ He had his hands on her hips. She kissed him again and he kissed her back. He undid the buttons of her blouse. She was