all his stupid promises about not sleeping with Sebastian. Who cared if he wanted nothing more than to fuck him? Who cared if Sebastian would just use it to tease him during the cruise?
It would be fun and raw. It would be amazing and terrifying. He would be a great lay.
People passing in the hall just outside the door brought him to his senses.
“What the fuck?” Duncan whispered. He had to get away before his own erection forced him to make a decision he would regret.
7
Sebastian
F uck . Fuck. Fuck.
Sebastian pulled on his swim trunks and hurried after Duncan to apologize and try to make things right. He cursed again when he saw that Duncan had managed to disappear.
What the fuck was I thinking?
Duncan’s scruffy roughness and blatant nervous energy had been killing Sebastian all morning. Sebastian wanted to keep his hands off, for Duncan’s sake, but he needed some release and figured he could pop off a load while Duncan was gone and be over it for a little while.
Plus, being alone in the small room and realizing that they would be sleeping next to each other had started getting Sebastian aroused.
He had been heading to the bathroom so he could put a locked door between them right when the Duncan had returned. He’d tried to get into his swim trunks before the door opened.
Idiot.
He returned to their room, hoping Duncan had come back. After an hour, he realized that Duncan might not be coming back. Sebastian worried that his friend had taken advantage of the ship still being docked and had given up on the vacation.
Sebastian pushed through a door to get to one of the outside decks. If he couldn’t find Duncan, he at least needed some fresh air. He headed toward the back of the ship since more people had crowded toward the front. Duncan wouldn’t be in a crowd.
He heard sobbing coming from the shadows down in a secluded spot where the two windowless walls came together at the back of the ship.
Sebastian dropped to a squat to see if someone needed help. Seeing that it was Duncan crying broke Sebastian’s heart. He had caused this pain. He needed to make it better.
“Duncan. What are you doing here? Are you...? I’m sorry about back at the room. I was just...well, it won’t happen again. I’ll put a sock on the door handle or something.”
“You are fucking all my shit up,” Duncan said in a quiet monotone. “You are going to ruin my life. I should just go home.” Duncan jumped to his feet. His eyes were wide with panic. “Is there still time? How’d I forget my goddamn watch?”
“Listen, man. We’ll figure this out. Let’s just...”
“Stop acting like you’re in charge. This isn’t your basement anymore. I’m not working for you. You don’t get to do things like change my fucking room.”
“I already explained that. We needed the space otherwise your parents would have assumed I was sitting on your lap whenever we were in the room. There would have been nowhere else to sit.”
Duncan tried to push pass Sebastian.
Sebastian couldn’t let him go. As terrifying as an angry Duncan was, Sebastian stood his ground. His heart raced while waiting for Duncan to decide what to do. Duncan could easily push past if he wanted to. He could pick Sebastian up and throw him off the ship if he wanted and there wasn’t a damn thing Sebastian could do about it.
Looking at Duncan’s eyes, Sebastian worried that getting tossed overboard was a real possibility.
“Why don’t you just tell them the truth? You’re a grown man. You take care of yourself. Whose business is it who you sleep with?”
“No. No. Fuck no. I’m not going to come out of the closet at my sister’s wedding. Can you imagine the nightmare that could cause?”
“But what if it doesn’t?’
“I have to assume that it will. For Katey.”
Sebastian looked over the rail at the Miami skyline. He had spent so much time out of the closet living in a city that was very gay friendly. He had to think back long and hard to
It would be fun and raw. It would be amazing and terrifying. He would be a great lay.
People passing in the hall just outside the door brought him to his senses.
“What the fuck?” Duncan whispered. He had to get away before his own erection forced him to make a decision he would regret.
7
Sebastian
F uck . Fuck. Fuck.
Sebastian pulled on his swim trunks and hurried after Duncan to apologize and try to make things right. He cursed again when he saw that Duncan had managed to disappear.
What the fuck was I thinking?
Duncan’s scruffy roughness and blatant nervous energy had been killing Sebastian all morning. Sebastian wanted to keep his hands off, for Duncan’s sake, but he needed some release and figured he could pop off a load while Duncan was gone and be over it for a little while.
Plus, being alone in the small room and realizing that they would be sleeping next to each other had started getting Sebastian aroused.
He had been heading to the bathroom so he could put a locked door between them right when the Duncan had returned. He’d tried to get into his swim trunks before the door opened.
Idiot.
He returned to their room, hoping Duncan had come back. After an hour, he realized that Duncan might not be coming back. Sebastian worried that his friend had taken advantage of the ship still being docked and had given up on the vacation.
Sebastian pushed through a door to get to one of the outside decks. If he couldn’t find Duncan, he at least needed some fresh air. He headed toward the back of the ship since more people had crowded toward the front. Duncan wouldn’t be in a crowd.
He heard sobbing coming from the shadows down in a secluded spot where the two windowless walls came together at the back of the ship.
Sebastian dropped to a squat to see if someone needed help. Seeing that it was Duncan crying broke Sebastian’s heart. He had caused this pain. He needed to make it better.
“Duncan. What are you doing here? Are you...? I’m sorry about back at the room. I was just...well, it won’t happen again. I’ll put a sock on the door handle or something.”
“You are fucking all my shit up,” Duncan said in a quiet monotone. “You are going to ruin my life. I should just go home.” Duncan jumped to his feet. His eyes were wide with panic. “Is there still time? How’d I forget my goddamn watch?”
“Listen, man. We’ll figure this out. Let’s just...”
“Stop acting like you’re in charge. This isn’t your basement anymore. I’m not working for you. You don’t get to do things like change my fucking room.”
“I already explained that. We needed the space otherwise your parents would have assumed I was sitting on your lap whenever we were in the room. There would have been nowhere else to sit.”
Duncan tried to push pass Sebastian.
Sebastian couldn’t let him go. As terrifying as an angry Duncan was, Sebastian stood his ground. His heart raced while waiting for Duncan to decide what to do. Duncan could easily push past if he wanted to. He could pick Sebastian up and throw him off the ship if he wanted and there wasn’t a damn thing Sebastian could do about it.
Looking at Duncan’s eyes, Sebastian worried that getting tossed overboard was a real possibility.
“Why don’t you just tell them the truth? You’re a grown man. You take care of yourself. Whose business is it who you sleep with?”
“No. No. Fuck no. I’m not going to come out of the closet at my sister’s wedding. Can you imagine the nightmare that could cause?”
“But what if it doesn’t?’
“I have to assume that it will. For Katey.”
Sebastian looked over the rail at the Miami skyline. He had spent so much time out of the closet living in a city that was very gay friendly. He had to think back long and hard to
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