me in on something, Ma? How come he gets away with leaving the table before weâre all finished? If I tried that, heâd shoot out both of my knees. What is this, a double-standard-type operation? And what makes him think I want to be president? The guyâs cracking up.â
His mother rested her head in one hand. âYou know something, John? Iâm sick of acting as go-between. Itâs exhausting. Iâm running out of steam. Why do you have to fight all the time?â
âAsk him. Whatâs bugging him. Heâs always on my back. Tell him to lay off. What does he want? Iâm not on drugs, I stay out of jail. What does he want? If I knew, maybe I could deliver.â His throat felt scratchy, pressure built up behind his nose, a sign of imminent emotion that he knew neither he nor his mother could handle right now. Hastily, he got up and took the plates out to the kitchen.
âDarling,â his mother said. He knew she felt bad about the fact that he and his father were always at each otherâs throats. Give praise where praise is due, heâd heard her say once, but even with his ear laid against the doorâs crack, thatâs all heâd been able to hear. They had been talking about him, that much he knew. There was a special tone in both their voices when they talked about him. Then, voice raised, his father had said, âIf thereâs a reason to praise him, I will. Iâve had no reason.â
Bullshit, he muttered. Double bullshit.
âHeâs young, Henry,â his mother had said. âLay off for a while. Canât you remember what it was to be young, Henry?â His father hadnât answered that one. That had been the end of it.â¦
âHeâs an ace at handing out flak, Ma, and you know it.â He rinsed the plates and put them in the dishwasher. âHe doesnât give Les flak, but he sure shovels plenty my way.â
âItâs because youâre his son,â she said. âHe expects a lot from you, John. He expects the best.â
âHey,â he said, âhe might not know it, but thatâs what heâs getting. Every day in every way Iâm dishing out my best.â
âNo, John. Thatâs not so. You just coast. He wants you to buckle down. Youâre a coaster. Thatâs what bugs your father.â
He contemplated his sneakers and didnât answer. Twenty-six dollars those mothers had cost six months ago, and already they looked as if theyâd been soaked in acid. He could hear his father keening when he announced he needed a new pair. âTwenty-six dollars for sneakers!â heâd wail, clutching his heart. The old man suffered from a serious time warp. Rip Van Winkle in a three-piece suit.
âGrace Lernerâs niece is visiting her from Seattle,â his mother said casually, changing the subject with a quiet clashing of gears. A warning gong sounded. Industriously, he scraped a bit of butter left on his plate onto the butter dish. Waste not, want not was the family motto.
âAny dessert?â He decided to ignore his motherâs ploy.
âThereâs half a grapefruit,â she said vaguely.
âGrapefruitâs for breakfast, I thought.â
âSheâs a lovely girl. Very bright. Captain of her lacrosse team, and Grace says she has a stunning figure.â
âWho?â he asked, wide-eyed.
âGrace Lernerâs niece,â she continued inexorably. When his mother waxed inexorable, stand back.
âMa, buzz off. Last time somebodyâs niece was in town, I got royally shafted. That girl was the biggest turkey in this neck of the woods since the Pilgrims landed. Hey,â his face lit up, âI might be able to use that one,â and he scribbled furiously on the back of a used envelope.
âThat wasnât a niece,â his mother said, full of reason. âThat was Ann Arnoldâs goddaughter. And I understand
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