semen filled the condom and I felt it deep inside my pussy. That was all it took. My muscles tightened and his groans became louder but my cries finally drowned out his. Seconds, minutes, I don’t know but his arms came around me, holding me tight. My body was limp and satisfied. I didn’t think I had ever felt this way. But, I was exhausted. His body disengaged with mine, he disposed of the condom, and then pulled a blanket over us but kept his arms around me. I slept through the night. Early morning sunlight shown through the sheer window coverings woke me up. I was alone. There was a bathrobe at the foot of the bed. It wasn’t the skimpy silk one from the night before. This one was soft plush terry cloth and when I put it on, it ended at my feet. I went in search of my Dom. Sitting at the table drinking a cup of coffee and reading the paper was the last person I expected to see. Carl looked up when I approached. “Good morning, I’ve brought some clothes for you and then I’m to escort you back to your rooms. Samson has been walked and fed this morning and I was told to let you sleep and that you will not be working tonight.” “Where is he?” “He left on a business trip and should be back in a few days.” My world collapsed. Carl didn’t look at me just stood and carried his coffee cup into the kitchen. I glanced around and spotted my bag. Picking it up, I went in search of a bathroom. I wasn’t going back into the bedroom. I couldn’t. The mirror showed my sleep tousled hair. The eyes reflecting back at me were devastated. Why didn’t he tell me he was leaving? He could have left me a note, anything. The more I thought about it the less hurt I felt and the more anger took over. I jerked on my clothes and went out to Carl. We went through the front door and walked to a different set of elevator doors. We walked inside and Carl entered a code. The doors opened and we were in a bedroom. It looked familiar and then I heard Sam whine on the other side of the closed bedroom door. We were in one of the rooms of my apartment. I looked at Carl. “Will my code work on this elevator and take me to Damian’s suite?” Carl glanced away. “I don’t know. Damian would need to set the access code with your room code.” “I see, thank you for your escort, I’ll see you tonight.” “Damian gave you the night off.” “When the rats away the mice will play. I’ll see you tonight.” Carl left. I tried the elevator but my room code didn’t work.
Chapter Twelve
I opened the bedroom door and Sam gave me exuberant kisses. He missed me. I lay down on the floor and let him cuddle while I ran my hand through his short back fur. Then I cried. I’m not sure how much time passed but a quiet knock sounded at my front door. I pulled myself off the floor and opened the door to find Raul. His arms came around me and I cried harder. “Oh baby.” I felt myself lifted and my strong submissive friend carried me to the couch and sat down holding me on his lap. I felt gentle kisses on my head. I let everything out; our night, Damian’s words, my hurt, and most of all my love. I loved the damn hell spawn. Raul listened while offering comfort. “He loves you too. I don’t know why he left without a word but he’ll be back and you’ll see. The man only has eyes for you. Even with his subs, his awareness is only for my red head blue eyed girl. The man’s crazy for you.” I didn’t believe him because I was too fucked up. I fought anorexia just like Damian accused me of. I feared my body returning to what it had been. And then there was part of me that loved the way my body used to be. I wanted a man to love me and every ounce of fat or muscle I possessed. I wanted to be cherished for the woman who screamed to get out of a world where perfection ruled. The little fat girl wanted to know she was beautiful. Raul fed me then put me to bed and I slept for the better part of the day. I finally showered