whatââ
âNothing else?â
Pam went through her mind. She didnât remember anything else. After Lauren had covered her eyes, after Pam had moved beside her and put a steadying arm around shaking shoulders, Lauren had made only low, wordless sounds, moaning sounds. âIâm sure thatâs all,â Pam said. âThen the doctor came and gave you something andâgot somebody to be with you for a while. A nurseâsomebody.â
âNot a nurse,â Lauren said. âOne of the housekeepers. An assistant housekeeper, I think it was. A womanâa very nice womanânamedââ She shook her head. âMason,â she said. âSomething like that. It doesnât matter. I went to sleep quite soon, I think.â She leaned back in the deep chair and closed her eyes. âYouâll thinkâI donât know what youâll think,â she said, and spoke slowly, from a distance, in a voice which no longer, to Pamâs ears, sounded so carefully guarded. âTo come to a complete stranger this way. Ask about what I ought to remember myself.â
âIt was a terrible shock,â Pam said. âA terrible thing to happen. I donât wonder youââ
âYou see,â Lauren said, as if Pam had not spoken. (As I might as well not have, Pam thought. Since I said nothing.) âYou see, Iâwith Anthony goneâthere isnât anybody. IâmâI feel terribly alone. Thatâs it, really. IâI couldnât just sit in that awful room. The room IâdâIâd heard it in. I had toâwell, just talk, I guess. To somebody. And youâyou were kind last night.â
âNothing,â Pam said. âI onlyââ
âThat was all it was,â Lauren said. âAâjust an inpulse.â She leaned forward in the chair and smiled againâsmiled again with lips, still did not smile with eyes. âYouâll have to forgive me.â
âOh. As for that? You mean, literally, you havenât anybody to turn to?â
âLiterally,â Lauren said. She smiled again. âItâs not so terrible,â she said. âIâm a grown woman. Just at the moment, with Anthony goneâI feelâI suppose the word is bereft.â
It seemed to Pam that, now, manner had returned to the voice; that voice was too carefully considered, words (for all the seeming stumbling over them) most carefully chosen. And Pam found that she did not think that âbereftâ was, really, quite the word. Not the word to use of oneâs self. Still, of courseâ
âBut,â Pam said, âyou must have friends.â
Lauren shook her head. She said, âAcquaintances. Anthony isâwasâalways so busy. And so often away getting material. We had very littleââ She ended with a shrug of delicate shoulders.
And in Pamâs mind, in spite of her best intentions, three words formedââOh, come now.â
âThat Mr. Smythe,â Pam said. âBlaine Smythe? I thought he seemedââ
Lauren said, âOh,â in a certain wayâa way which dismissed Blaine Smythe. âA friend of Anthonyâs,â she said. âNot of mine, really. One of the actors in Anthonyâs play. Anthony met him at rehearsals, I suppose. I hardly know him.â
This time Pam almost spoke the same three words. She remembered Lauren and Blaine Smythe sitting on a sofa in the Dumontâs Gold Room, of Smythe leaning toward the slender and lovely (and strangely nervous, uneasy) woman and talking, with what had looked like intent earnestness, to her.
âIâve bothered you long enough,â Lauren said. âIâm sure you have things to do.â
âNo,â Pam said. âOhâthings. Not really things, though. You know.â
Lauren Payne did not look as if she did.
âMrs. Payne,â Pam said, âwhat did you think you might have
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