again.
“I had some control in the situation. You act like you were in it all alone. I wanted to be with you.” Natalie didn’t want him taking the blame all alone for that, but he was totally at blame for giving them up.
“I didn’t think I would’ve gotten so wrapped up in you, but from the first time you shyly invited me up to your place, I knew you were different. The Reapers are a smaller club and said they wouldn’t cause any beef with us about their past president’s actions, but the stipulation was The Devil’s Hornets had to cut ties with you. That wasn’t going to happen, but I said that I would leave you alone. That was good enough for them.”
“Never occurred to you to let me know that?” She asked calmly. Natalie was proud of how she sounded because inside she was screaming like a two year old having a tantrum.
“I didn’t want you to think you were causing any problem for one, and for the other, I didn’t know how I was going to look into your beautiful face and tell you we were done.”
“So you tell the world I mean nothing to you and you go on with your life?”
“I can see how you would think that. It is the way I wanted it to look, but I started following up on you… you know, just to make sure you were safe.”
“When?”
“Since the beginning. How do you think I knew when that guy who was on the tape came into the shop? I was there in a flash because I’d been watching you and your shop. You looked so vulnerable, and although Billy has been there to help you, I still wanted to make sure you were safe.”
“How often do you check on me?” Natalie didn’t even know why this was a question of hers. What difference did that make? It made her feel a little better that he hadn’t just thrown her away with the harsh words she knew he’d had to say.
“Sometimes it was daily, but most of the time it was a few times a day.”
“Well thank you for checking up on me,” she said honestly. It made her feel good to know that he cared enough to check on her. “How’s your mother doing?”
“She’s getting better, but she had some decreased feeling on her left side and she’s learning how to walk again.”
“I knew she had some slight facial drooping, but her mind seems very sharp.”
“She’s sharp alright,” Jack said with a chuckle, “she wanted to talk to you and had been hinting very strongly before her stroke that I should talk to you, but she didn’t know all that happened. The old bird found a way to get you to come to her.”
“I think The Hornets bought almost all my flowers for her. I didn’t know she was in the hospital or rehab when she was there, but I knew there was someone who was receiving a large amount of flowers daily from different people. It’s nice that your group is so supportive.” If they could keep this conversation light and casual, they may just make it through the whole conversation with no problems.
“Which brings me to the next thing I wanted to talk about.” Jack sat a little taller in his seat, and Natalie knew that whatever he was going to say was serious. As they talked a bit and the tension eased a bit, she’d started eating more, but now that he was gearing up to tell her what he had to say, the food felt like it was a ball of cement in her stomach.
“What is it?” She set down her fork and waited.
“The other thing I heard you saying was you were tired of hiding, but I’m not tired of either of us living. I’d like us to do it together, but we can’t do it in this town. You have a family flower shop that you are tied to, so I’ll understand if you say you have to pass on this, but I want you to think about it.”
“Sounds serious.” Natalie picked up her water and drank down a large mouthful as her mouth was getting dry just listening to the buildup of his question.
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