then drive out into the desert to dig a hole for her corpse. He'd been with JoAnn for well over a decade and she'd done a lot of ignorant and stupid things during the course of their relationship, but this latest idiotic act of hers outdid them all. He'd never put his hands on her before. He didn't understand how JoAnn could be so reckless and then want him to easily forgive her.
"She must be out of her damn mind," Jesse said out loud as he walked down the Leg Vegas strip. "How in the fuck did she blow all of the damn money and think that I was going to be okay with that shit!" He continued to rant loudly as he wandered the streets. He caught the curious glances of a few people who moved out of his way when they realized that he was on edge.
"I should've never hooked up with her ghetto ass. Everyone in her damn family is ignorant. None of them amounted to anything. They're all just a bunch of alcoholics, leeches, welfare queens, wannabe pimps and idiots." Jesse began walking away from the strip and toward the University of Las Vegas. Once he made it to the campus, he wandered over to the football field and took a seat on the bleachers.
He exhaled a few times and began to think about happier times with JoAnn. He thought about how they'd met at the Essence Music Festival. She'd accidentally bumped into him with her tray of food and spilled it all over him. She was so apologetic about ruining his clothes but he didn't care. He continually told her that it was okay but she wouldn't stop apologizing. Once she stopped brushing food off his clothes, he met her gaze and saw a kind and generous woman he wanted to get to know. Without thinking twice, he asked her name, where she was from and if she'd like to attend the Frankie Beverly concert with him later that evening. She said no at first, but then quickly changed her mind and told him she'd go with him if her sister came with them. After the concert, Jesse took her out for a late dinner. His attraction to her was strong, and as they got to know each other, a level of comfort developed that made him feel as if he'd known her for years.
After the music festival, they exchanged phone numbers and promised to keep in touch. Jesse didn't think he'd see JoAnn for at least a few weeks, but it turned out they were both on the same flight from New Orleans to Chicago. They rearranged their seats so they could sit next to each other and talk more during the flight home.
During the course of their courtship, Jesse and JoAnn enjoyed attending celebrations and enjoying nightlife with friends. For Jesse, it was a nice diversion from the chaotic and stressful world he lived in. JoAnn had the ability to make him laugh and feel as if he could accomplish anything with a woman like her at his side. After a year of dating, he asked JoAnn to marry him.
"I'm going to have to end my marriage. I can't go on like this. I can't continue to live in the house with a woman who insists on drinking and gambling. We are two completely different people. I knew it when I married her. Marrying her was a stupid move on my part." Jesse exhaled in an effort to release some of his frustration. He couldn't come up with a clear and decisive answer as to what he should do about his strained relationship with JoAnn. There were a multitude of things he needed to consider before going down the road of divorce. He would have to contend with the emotional trauma for their daughter, Trina. JoAnn would also have the right to ask for her fair share of his business profits and the value of their home.
"Damn, damn, damn!" Jesse shouted as he weighed all the facts. He no longer liked JoAnn, and he damn sure didn't trust her anymore.
"A marriage without trust is going to fail," he said aloud. "Our marriage is a relationship that should have been buried a long time ago," he murmured to himself. "I can't believe that I wanted to kill her. It's not cool that I lost it like that," Jesse said as he ran his fingers over his
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