ones people only buy from salesmen-relatives who are down on their luck. Youâre using it to carve a leg off the chicken carcass. Everything you do in the kitchen looks so easy â the way you separate an egg or roll a meatball onto its raw side without having it crumble into bits in the frying pan. Even this precise mutilation of the chicken â where you take the animal apart as if it was never held together with anything more than tiny, invisible zippers â thereâs a kind of perfection to it. Itâs gorgeous. And itâd make you even madder than you already are if I mention it.
But thatâs not what Iâm thinking as I pull my cell phone out of my pocket to prove youâre wrong about me shutting it off. âSee, I didnât â what? I did not turn it â ah, dang it. I must have forgotten to switch the ringer back on after my morning meeting. Sorry. But having your cell phone ring in the middle of a meeting like that is the worst. Itâs like openly passing gas or something.â
âAnyways,â you go on, flipping the chicken over to cut off its wings. âI thought each of your sisters could offer prayers at your memorial service. But I couldnât decide which one of your cousins I should ask to give the eulogy. I mean, ideally Iâd do it myself, but since speaking at your motherâs funeral was almost emotionally impossible for me, I decided Iâd better assign it to someone else, right? Someone whoâs kind of close but kind of far away at the same time.â
Thatâs when I cross the floor to hug you into the crackling down fill and nylon of my winter coat. Youâve still got the knife in your hand but Iâll hold onto you anyway â at least until I feel you starting to straighten and strain away from me.
âBrigs â Brigs, my hands are covered in chicken gunk.â
When you say it, I can smell it. I let go and you step away to take hold of whatâs left of the chicken. Thereâs a crack as its vertebrae come apart in your bare hands.
âBy the way,â you go on, âyou still havenât given me definitive permission to have all your loveliness cremated. I need something in writing in case anyone tries to get up in my face with their nonsense about âdesecration.ââ
To the snap and sting of static electricity, I slide my heavy coat off my arms. Iâm kicking through the pile of winter boots and coats and mittens strewn in front of the hall closet. The floor is wet with melted snow, soaking through my socks. It looks like the boys came home from school and then just exploded inside the front door.
âOkay, okay. Enough with the funeral planning,â I say. âI made it home just fine.â
âAnd for floral tributes,â you continue as you break through the marrow of the chickenâs sternum with the knife blade, âI guess weâll go with whateverâs in season â and not too girlie. Only no lilies. Lilies have a terrible smell. There, I said it.â
I sniff. âYou donât like lilies?â
âHate âem.â
I cock my head. âI must not remember what they smell like.â
âWell, itâs one of those pricky smells that gets right up inside your cribriform plate.â
I snort. âAll right. No funeral lilies. How about some fancy orchids then â something to go with the string quartet?â
âYuck, no.â
âCome on. You canât hate all the over-priced flowers on principle.â
âItâs got nothing to do with principles. Itâs just that orchidsââ You pause to roll your eyes at yourself over the dismembered chicken. âI wouldnât have to explain this to you if you hadnât been too busy with all that math to ever take a zoology class in university.â
âHuh?â
âYouâve never dissected a rat, Brigs.â
Iâm shaking my head as you step
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