camera on the piano bench and slamming on the keys, turned partly toward the person taking the picture, giggling. âThe fat one is Nick,â said Lindsay. Everyone started laughing. Baby Nick was wearing just a diaper, and he really was chubby, the rolls of fat spilling over the top of his diaper, his pudgy wrists like twisted balloons. âHe never got much better at piano than that,â she added. Big laugh from the class.
Across from Lindsay, Nick sat with his long legssprawled under his desk. He wore that half smile on his face, as though he didnât mind the good-natured teasing he was getting, although the tips of his ears had gone red. Was she embarrassing him? Oh well.
And then she flicked through picture after picture of her and Nickâdressed for Halloween as a knight and a princess; on the town soccer team in identical uniforms, when Lindsay had been a full two inches taller than Nick (more laughs); and then at her tenth birthday party, when her dad had taken the two of them, plus Matthew, to a professional baseball game. She and Nick were both dressed in head-to-toe Cubs uniforms. And Lindsay was still taller than Nick. Which earned him even more friendly teasing from a few of his friends in the homeroom.
Finally she got to the last slide, a picture of herself from the past summer that her mom had snapped with her smartphone. It showed Lindsay standing in front of their car, clutching a pile of piano books to her chest, grinning widely because sheâd just gotten her braces off. She clicked off the projector.
Sheâd prepared her conclusion and practiced it ten times the night before, but now she addressed the class without looking at her cards. She felt the words bubble upinside her and decided just to say them.
âSo now weâre in seventh grade,â she said. âI think seventh grade is kind of a crossroads. Itâs time to grow and change and meet new people. We canât necessarily remain friends with people weâve known all our lives, because people change.â She paused, panicked, and looked down at her card. But she couldnât read it, because her eyes had gotten all misted up. So she just ended with a lame-sounding âSo, yeah. Thatâs my presentation,â then walked quickly back to her desk and sat down.
Sasha and Jenn both patted her on the arm from either side, whispering that sheâd been awesome.
People clapped politely, and Mr. Bates told her âGood job,â and then the bell rang and everyone stood up, shouldering backpacks, shuffling papers, and getting ready to head to the first class.
Lindsay shot up from her desk and was one of the first people out of the classroom when the bell rang. She headed straight for the girlsâ bathroom and into one of the stalls. Once inside, she burst into tears.
chapter 11
SHE COMPOSED HERSELF QUICKLY, THOUGH. Lindsay wasnât even sure why she was so emotional. The talk had gone pretty well, considering. Maybe everyone was gossiping about her âNick fixation,â but there wasnât much she could do about that. Sheâd found Nickâs expressions impossible to read. Was he mad at her? Pleased to be so featured in her presentation? Did he even care? That was probably the worst option, for him to not even care.
She made it to her next class on time and tried to concentrate on school all the way up until lunch. She was dying to see Rosie, to talk to her about everything, about how complicated it all was.
When she got to her locker just before lunch, Rosie was waiting for her. Lindsay took one look at her friend, and her day went from bad to worse. She did not likethe look on Rosieâs face. It looked mad, and reproachful, and . . . she couldnât say what else.
âHi,â Lindsay said.
Rosie didnât say hi back. She waited until Lindsay was close enough to talk to without other people hearing.
âHow come you didnât say anything?â