the boatâis that starboard? she thinks soâthey reach the end of the island of Kauai. There stand the swoops of the jagged peaks and cliffs of the Kokee Mountains; Hannah tries to concentrate on them instead of on whatever is going on inside her head. The shape of them callsto mind the teeth in a deer skull grown over with mossânature reclaiming a creature in death. Death. That puts her right back to it. Obsessing over the future. Over the end of all people and all things.
Instead, she just closes her eyes.
Itâs a long, choppy ride. Several hours in, her head starts to feel disconnected from her stomach. And closing her eyes isnât helping.
When she opens them again, she sees Ray standing over her. âGetting seasick? I can get you a bucket. Anything for a guest of Einarâs.â
She frowns. âItâs not seasickness.â But she doesnât owe him an explanation.
âWell, whatever existential dread youâre suffering right now, you donât have to sit out here. You can go belowdecks. Thereâs a bar. Some salads, sandwiches, wine, whatever. Itâs nice. You should check it out.â
âIâll stay up here.â Sheâs not sure why. Is she paralyzed by fear? Or is she trying to face down that fear? She tells herself the latter. âWhatâs the agenda? When I get to the island.â
âWell. Weâll get you settled in. Get a meal. Give you the tour. Then itâs on you. Poke around. Ask questions. Maybe just leave everyone the fuck alone and go enjoy a little bit of an untouched tropical paradise.â
âOkay,â she says, not sure how else to respond. âWill Einar be there?â
âWill Einar be . . . ? Câmon, no, of course not. Heâs one of the busiest guys in the world. He doesnât have time for . . . this .â Ray stands there, and she feels his impatience and irritation. The man makes these little noises: microsighs, the whisper of his fingertips against each other as he fidgets, a small grunt. Finally he sits next to her. âItâs bullshit, you know.â
âA whole lot of things are bullshit,â she says, seeing in her mindâs eye her mother wincing at the vulgarity. âSo I need you to be more specific.â
âYou. This. The reason youâre here.â
âThe murder.â
âItâs bullshit.â
âMurder is never bullshit.â
âI just meanâants? Really. Youâre saying ants killed this guy and that we were the ones whoââ
She keeps staring out over the ocean. âIâm not saying any of those things. We believe ants were at least in part responsible for the manâs death. We believe those ants were genetically engineered. And the marker genes present in those ants are the same ones present in your mosquitoes.â
âThose mosquitoes have saved lives.â
âIâm sure they have.â
âIf we could bring them to Floridaâor even here, Hawaii. Dengueâs bad news. They call it breakbone fever for a reason.â He scowls. âYou get this . . . pain behind your eyes, like someoneâs got their thumbs back there trying to pop them out of your head like corks. Comes with a fever, headache, chills, sweats. But the hell of it is how your bones hurt. Your arms, your legs. It feels like someone is pulverizing them. Crushing them like big rocks into little gravel.â
âYouâve had it.â
âDamn right I have. Doing relief work in Haiti a few years ago. Weâre trying to do good things. And youâre standing in the way.â
âIâm not standing in anybodyâs way. I have a job to do and that job is a fact-finding mission. Iâm not an agent, as has been discussed. Iâm here just to rule out involvement by Arcaââ
âYouâre the enemy is what you are.â
âIâm sorry you feel that way.â
He shrugs. âGood luck
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