brothers in, that it was an impossibility weâd make a family, make a difference. They were wrong. If weâd listened to them, if weâd gone by logic, none of you would have been ours. But fate doesnât give a horseâs ass about logic. It just is. And you were meant to be ours.â
âOkay.â Phillip shot out a hand and jerked it back in shock. âHow could I do that? How could I touch you if youâre a ghost?â
âBecause you need to.â Casually, Ray gave Phillipâs shoulder a quick pat. âIâm here, for the next little while.â
Phillipâs throat filled even as his stomach tightened into knots. âWhy?â
âI didnât finish. I left it up to you and your brothers. Iâm sorry for that, Phillip.â
It wasnât happening, of course, Phillip told himself. He was probably in the first stages of a minor breakdown. He couldfeel the air against his face, warm and moist. The cicadas were still shrilling, the owl still hooting.
If he was having an episode, he thought again, it seemed only right to play it out. âTheyâre trying to say it was suicide,â he said slowly. âThe insurance companyâs fighting the claim.â
âI hope you know thatâs bullshit. I was careless, distracted. I had an accident.â There was an edge to Rayâs voice now, an impatience and annoyance that Phillip recognized. âI wouldnât have taken the easy way. And I had the boy to think about.â
âIs Seth your son?â
âI can tell you that he belongs to me.â
Both his head and his heart ached as he turned to stare out at the water again. âMom was still alive when he was conceived.â
âI know that. I was never unfaithful to your mother.â
âThen howââ
âYou need to accept him, for himself. I know you care for him. I know youâre doing your best by him. You have that last step to take. Acceptance. He needs you, all of you.â
âNothingâs going to happen to him,â Phillip said grimly. âWeâll see to that.â
âHeâll change your life, if you let him.â
Phillip let out a short laugh. âBelieve me, he already has.â
âIn a way that will make your life better. Donât close yourself off to those possibilities. And donât worry too much about this little visit.â Ray patted him companionably on the knee. âTalk to your brothers.â
âYeah, like Iâm going to tell them I sat outside in the middle of the night and talked to . . .â He looked over, saw nothing but the moonlight on the trees.
âNobody,â he finished and wearily laid down on the grass to stare up at the moon. âGod, I need a vacation.â
F OUR
I T WOULDNâT DO to appear too anxious, Sybill reminded herself. Or to get there too early. It had to be casual. She had to be relaxed.
She decided not to take her car. It would look more like a careless visit if she walked down from the waterfront. And if she included the visit to the boatyard in an afternoon of shopping and wandering, it would appear more impulsive than calculated.
To calm herself, she roamed the waterfront. A pretty Indian-summer Saturday morning drew tourists. They poked and strolled along as she did, dropping into the little shops, pausing to watch boats sail or motor on the Bay. No one seemed to be in a particular hurry or have a specific destination.
That in itself, she mused, made an interesting contrast to the usual urban Saturday when even the tourists seemed to be in a rush to get from one place to the next.
It would be something to consider and analyze and perhaps theorize over in her book. And because she did find itinteresting, she slipped her mini recorder out of her bag and murmured a few verbal notes and observations.
âFamilies appear to be relaxed rather than harried or desperately seeking the entertainment
Joyce Magnin
James Naremore
Rachel van Dyken
Steven Savile
M. S. Parker
Peter B. Robinson
Robert Crais
Mahokaru Numata
L.E. Chamberlin
James R. Landrum