everything in the hotel suite, except for my arousal. Erections are involuntary, but I knew better. The story was tough enough for April. I saw that in her face.
âYou went to a hotel room with her?â she said. Hurt cracked her voice in a way I had never heard from her. It felt like breaking a rare crystal artwork. âAnd let her put her hands on you? Why the hell would you do that, Ten? You thought that was business as usual?â
You shouldnât have told her, my Evil Voice said.
I put my arm around April to soften the way it sounded. âBaby, I didnât know. Theyâd used it for a press junket. In the back of my mind, I wondered, butâ¦youâve interviewed people in hotel rooms, April. You know most meetings donât include nudity. Be fair.â
But you could have guessed, I heard her thinking, and she sat with that thought a while. I had culpability, too, and we both knew it. I could have left when Lynda Jewell first mentioned Pauline. I could have left when she unbuttoned her shirt.
âI was stupid,â I said. âI wonât put myself in that position again.â
âI canât believe her!â April said finally, and I was glad her anger had found its rightful target. Aprilâs mouth moved like a fish fighting to breathe, speechless with rage.
That reminded me: Iâd forgotten to feed the fish again.
April followed me downstairs. When she regained her voice, her mouth set loose a flurry of curses rhyming with ârich,â and some that never leave my mouth but rhyme with ârunt.â My ears felt polluted to hear Aprilâs sweet voice wrapped around that language as we passed my fatherâs closed door. It was almost as bad as hearing Chela curse.
âShhhh,â I said. âYouâre gonna get us both kicked out of my own house.â
âShe called your agent for that ?â
âItâs over, April.â
âTrust me, itâs not. If she was as mad as you said, she wonât let that go.â
Len hadnât heard the full story yet. Iâd managed to avoid his eager postmeeting calls because of the weekend, but he deserved a full disclosure by Monday. Len had always warned me my reputation was at risk. And if Lynda Jewell made good on her threat to bad-mouth me, my future in Hollywood was already my past. Hollywood is a small town.
Once the fish were safely fed, I led April back upstairs. Toward the shower.
By silent agreement, we were finished talking, or thinking, about Lynda Jewell.
The upstairs bathroom didnât have a double-headed shower like the one Iâd given to Chela, but it was still a worthy meeting place. That night, it was sanctuary. Raising my finger to my lips, I locked the door behind us. Just in case Chela came looking.
To the untutored, sex in the shower can be a nightmare. It sounds great in theory, but too many passionate inspirations go awry against wet shower tiles. Luckily, Iâd had great teachers.
While April undressed, I tested the water stream and temperature, keeping my eyes on my task. I knew Aprilâs body well by thenâit was mine, as she liked telling me, and I loved to hearâbut sometimes I denied myself the vision of Aprilâs nakedness as long as possible before lovemaking. I liked the surprise of her, new and fresh to my eyes.
âItâs ready for you, miss,â I said, like the perfect hotel porter.
âThank you, sir,â she said, and slipped past me in a blur of brown nakedness.
We were both playing the game of newness.
I peeled off the formfitting black shirt and black slacks Iâd worn to the fund-raiser, my all-purpose L.A. Chic that saved me from the hassle of a suit and tie. Last, my black briefs. The small bathroom smelled like us immediately; a combination of perspiration, old cologne, and subtle body scents; some sour, some sweet. Already, the mirror was beginning to fog.
In the cabinet, I found two sea wool sponges
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