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just dumped him because we were drifting apart.”
“Right. And Alec isn’t really there to be a buffer between you and your mom. He’s there to be a buffer between you and Martin .”
She half nods. “I’m a terrible person, aren’t I?”
“No. I just think you should be careful. I don’t want you to break Alec’s heart. Don’t lead him on.” It seems like déjà vu. I’m pretty sure I had this exact same conversation with Alec not too long ago. Only then I was worried about him hurting her . I never thought it would be the other way around.
“Maybe you’re right… Maybe I should confront Martin. I should tell him what I think. What he did to me was awful. I still can’t believe he did that.” She takes a deep breath. “I thought I was going to marry him.”
“Were you in love with him?”
“Honestly? No. I thought that I was. And what he did hurt, but I almost felt relief because I had a reason to break up with him. Before that he had been perfect . But he never made me feel the way that Alec does.” The second the words leave her mouth, I know she instantly regrets them. She looks at Stephan and Mona, who are in the middle of their own conversation, and then she looks up at Peter. “Please cut that out of the show.”
“I don’t control what goes in the show. I control the filming. Somebody else controls the editing…”
She looks at the camera. “Please, whoever is editing, don’t put that in. That’s embarrassing.”
I ignore the camera. “So how do you feel about Alec?”
She turns back to me. “Like I’m hot and cold at the same time. And my heart feels like it’s literally going to beat its way out of my chest. My palms get sweaty, and my stomach feels nervous. No matter how much I’m around him, it never goes away. He gives me freaking butterflies . What am I? Twelve?”
I laugh. “I still feel that way about Stephan, and we’re married.”
“I’m pathetic.”
“No,” I protest. “You’re in love. ”
She groans. “Please, don’t say that.”
“It’s true.”
“Either way, I can’t act on my feelings. So it doesn’t do any good.”
“You can act on them. You’re just too stubborn to.” Wow. That sounds familiar. Bridgett truly is my twin. It’s just another thing we have in common… Stubbornness — even when there is no reason to be stubborn. I can see that now. Hopefully I learned my lesson, but I somehow doubt it.
“You’re stubborn too,” she says, echoing my thoughts.
“Yep,” I agree. “I was just hoping that you had learned from watching me.”
She rolls her eyes.
“ The heart wants what the heart wants . No matter how bad you want to control it, sometimes you just can’t. I think you should give in. If Alec says he wants to love you forever, let him .”
“I’m scared,” she whispers.
I look at Stephan. He’s talking to Mona, but sees me watching and winks at me. My heart feels like it does a dive into my stomach. I will never get tired of that. I turn back to Bridgett. “I was scared too, but there is no reason to be. Alec isn’t Martin. He’s not your mom. He’s not our dad. Give him a chance to prove he’s not going to hurt you.”
“I will. Eventually.”
“Just do it before it’s too late.”
She nods, but I can see the fear in her eyes. She’s scared to be with him, but she’s also scared to not be with him. I wish that I could help make the decision for her, but I know this is something she has to work out on her own. All I can do is be there for her, and that’s exactly what I plan to do.
Thursday, November 13
6:14 PM
I wish I could teleport
I had another successful day in the studio. If it keeps up like this, I might actually have some chill time before the tour. Maybe we can spend a week in Hope for Thanksgiving, and then maybe a couple weeks for Christmas. That would be nice.
In an hour, we are going to be leaving for New York City. It’s a first time visit for Stephan, Mona, and Bridgett. I
“Right. And Alec isn’t really there to be a buffer between you and your mom. He’s there to be a buffer between you and Martin .”
She half nods. “I’m a terrible person, aren’t I?”
“No. I just think you should be careful. I don’t want you to break Alec’s heart. Don’t lead him on.” It seems like déjà vu. I’m pretty sure I had this exact same conversation with Alec not too long ago. Only then I was worried about him hurting her . I never thought it would be the other way around.
“Maybe you’re right… Maybe I should confront Martin. I should tell him what I think. What he did to me was awful. I still can’t believe he did that.” She takes a deep breath. “I thought I was going to marry him.”
“Were you in love with him?”
“Honestly? No. I thought that I was. And what he did hurt, but I almost felt relief because I had a reason to break up with him. Before that he had been perfect . But he never made me feel the way that Alec does.” The second the words leave her mouth, I know she instantly regrets them. She looks at Stephan and Mona, who are in the middle of their own conversation, and then she looks up at Peter. “Please cut that out of the show.”
“I don’t control what goes in the show. I control the filming. Somebody else controls the editing…”
She looks at the camera. “Please, whoever is editing, don’t put that in. That’s embarrassing.”
I ignore the camera. “So how do you feel about Alec?”
She turns back to me. “Like I’m hot and cold at the same time. And my heart feels like it’s literally going to beat its way out of my chest. My palms get sweaty, and my stomach feels nervous. No matter how much I’m around him, it never goes away. He gives me freaking butterflies . What am I? Twelve?”
I laugh. “I still feel that way about Stephan, and we’re married.”
“I’m pathetic.”
“No,” I protest. “You’re in love. ”
She groans. “Please, don’t say that.”
“It’s true.”
“Either way, I can’t act on my feelings. So it doesn’t do any good.”
“You can act on them. You’re just too stubborn to.” Wow. That sounds familiar. Bridgett truly is my twin. It’s just another thing we have in common… Stubbornness — even when there is no reason to be stubborn. I can see that now. Hopefully I learned my lesson, but I somehow doubt it.
“You’re stubborn too,” she says, echoing my thoughts.
“Yep,” I agree. “I was just hoping that you had learned from watching me.”
She rolls her eyes.
“ The heart wants what the heart wants . No matter how bad you want to control it, sometimes you just can’t. I think you should give in. If Alec says he wants to love you forever, let him .”
“I’m scared,” she whispers.
I look at Stephan. He’s talking to Mona, but sees me watching and winks at me. My heart feels like it does a dive into my stomach. I will never get tired of that. I turn back to Bridgett. “I was scared too, but there is no reason to be. Alec isn’t Martin. He’s not your mom. He’s not our dad. Give him a chance to prove he’s not going to hurt you.”
“I will. Eventually.”
“Just do it before it’s too late.”
She nods, but I can see the fear in her eyes. She’s scared to be with him, but she’s also scared to not be with him. I wish that I could help make the decision for her, but I know this is something she has to work out on her own. All I can do is be there for her, and that’s exactly what I plan to do.
Thursday, November 13
6:14 PM
I wish I could teleport
I had another successful day in the studio. If it keeps up like this, I might actually have some chill time before the tour. Maybe we can spend a week in Hope for Thanksgiving, and then maybe a couple weeks for Christmas. That would be nice.
In an hour, we are going to be leaving for New York City. It’s a first time visit for Stephan, Mona, and Bridgett. I
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