The mansion had a lot of perks. The gym. The pool. I even got myself a king-sized bed. But a bed like this wasn’t for sleeping. I could think of much better things to do on it. But the one woman I wanted in the bed was the one who wanted nothing to do with me while horizontal. Good thing I was just as proficient when vertical. I kicked my duffle bag into the closet. This wasn’t a room that deserved a mess on the floor. The bed had eight fucking pillows. Who the hell used that many pillows? Or a quilt that looked like someone stretched and ruined a scarf then tossed it over a corner. They painted the ceiling with cherubs, and mismatched marble and granite in the fireplace. It was all my mother’s doing, as was most of the décor in the house. If Shay noticed the mansion transitioned from eighteenth century France to nineteenth century Venice, she said nothing. My mother transformed the estate into journey through history. We were lucky she hadn’t require powdered wigs and cummerbunds to enjoy it. I couldn’t fault her style, even if the bleach in her hair scrambled what she thought looked classy. At least Mom and Darnell had been happy before the end. She wanted a guy with a bottomless wallet to take care of her, and he liked them blonde and pumped full of silicon. Match made in Heaven. I wished them well and then headed overseas. It wasn’t my place to judge and, hell, I didn’t have time for family. But life had a funny way of trapping you in an ambush and splitting your flesh with two pounds of explosive shrapnel. Fate spoke to me, saying slow down or bleed out . I woke from surgery with my mother talking about diamonds, tulle veils, and destination weddings. Took her two days and one seizure before she asked which of my organs didn’t make it back from Iraq. Par for the fucking course. My head pounded. The bed looked good, but so did the stack of weights in the basement gym and the salt-water pool. I needed to do both. I kicked the pillows off the bed instead. I didn’t need this luxury. I got used to lying in two inches of standing water and sucking mud in the middle of monsoons. I once laid motionless for twenty-two straight hours in the stinging desert waiting for a target to slip from the hut where the fucker traded children for God-knows-what. And that night was comfortable compared to other assignments. And now I owned a king-sized bed with a remote that controlled the television, lights, stereo, climate settings, and security systems. I even had a panic room. A SEAL. In a panic room. Unless an intruder planned on locking me inside of it, the fucker messing with me was in more danger—even while I blinked away headaches. A headache that was getting worse. “Fuck it.” I yanked my shirt over my head and kicked off my boots. Pretty sure there was a hamper somewhere in my room, but damn if I cared. I collapsed on the bed, feet kicked over the side. Close enough. The migraine came on strong. I clenched my eyes shut, but that didn’t do shit. I flopped over into the remaining pillows and buried my head. That was better. Darker at least. Comfortable. Except for my namesake. Christ. I shifted. My cock didn’t. Hard didn’t begin to describe it. I spent entirely too much time thinking about Shay, and I wasted even more concocting a crazy excuse for a chance to see her again. Christ she was pretty when she got mad. Shay was the kind of beautiful you hallucinated after a blow to the head. And she was the one girl who’d make me swallow my tongue before I thought of something clever to say. Like… I probably should have told you I was your step-brother before I fucked you . That might have helped. Keeping it secret rubbed her the wrong way…which was ironic since our problems started when I rubbed her the right way. I couldn’t get her out of my head or the blood out of my cock. I hoped my headache would temper my reaction, but if