with calling me by my proper name and often exaggerates it as if to prove that a name with more than one syllable is too difficult for her American mouth to pronounce. I simply do not understand this girl! It is so hard to understand how a girl who is as beautiful and as brilliant and as athletically gifted as Lena Sardi could have achieved so much with such a carefree attitude about life. Papa warned me that I would encounter difficult people once I left for college. He warned me that I have been too sheltered by Charlie and Rosette and that I must learn to become more forgiving of people and their many faults. Until I met Lena Sardi, I did not believe him. I never imagined that I would be forced to room with a feral cat. But Papa also told me that I should always try to find good in people, even those who might offend or hurt me. Papa would be very disappointed in me if he were to learn that I did not try to become friends with this girl. So for Papa’s sake, I will try to become her friend. Perhaps Papa is right about finding good in people? For all her faults, Lena does have one quality I admire greatly. Lena is extremely friendly. Even though she is a wealthy, famous girl, she is also the friendliest girl I have ever met. Perhaps a little too friendly at times, as she is always hugging me and kissing my cheek even though I have told her I do not like to be hugged or kissed. Even so, Lena makes me feel “normal,” as if I am just another normal girl and she is just another normal girl and together we are normal college roommates. Lena’s friendliness seems so effortless for her and I can tell she is not acting. She seems to have a very loving heart and seems to want me to be happy. I can tell she is working hard to make me feel as if we have been friends forever. On our way back from dinner this evening Lena asked me to be her cross-training partner. She asked me to go to the gym with her before breakfast tomorrow to help her remain in shape for a tournament at the end of September. I think asking me to help her cross-train was her way to build friendship. I can see no other reason why Lena would ask me to join her. I am clearly not as athletically conditioned as her. But she said she believes that working out together will also help us get to know each other and become better roommates. I only hope I have the strength to do what she has asked. She wants me to get up at 5AM! That is far too early, even for me. I do not know if I can do it. I will do it tomorrow for the sake of being a good friend, but once classes begin I may need to excuse myself. I suppose that captures the essence of my relationship with Lena. I must try. I do not believe it will work, but I must try to be her friend. I owe it to Lena and Papa to try. I know she is trying hard to become my friend, so I must try just as hard. May God help me. This is NOT what I thought college would be like! With all my Love, Lenore Consuela Maria De La Fuente
Five
August 28, 1980 Dear Diary, I have the most AMAZING roommate on the WHOLE FRIGGING PLANET! I’m rooming with Lenore De La Fuente! YES! THAT Lenore De La Fuente! OH MY GOD! She’s even more beautiful in person than in the magazines! Lenore is absolutely the most beautiful girl on the entire planet! You have to see this girl up close to believe just how beautiful she is. Oh my God! Her eyes… They’re so beautiful! They are this super-hypnotic golden brown color and you just want to stare into them for weeks. I’m such a worthless mess next to this girl. She’s so stinking perfect and so put together and I’m such a frigging mess. I’ll never be that beautiful. Okay… So I sold 5 million copies of my white bikini poster. So I guess 5 million perverts think I’m beautiful. But not like the kind of beautiful Lenore is. Oh my God, she’s so perfect! She’s so thin and so graceful and her smile is so frigging perfect. And WOW does she have clothes! She has a closet full of