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her finger at me. “Don’t you ever call me weak. You did this, not me.”
    “If it’s not weakness, then what is it? Why do you keep running?” I keep my eyes locked on hers, begging for the truth.
    “You’re the only person in this world who can really hurt me. The way I feel about you scares the crap out of me. I’m scared, Dane,” she says, falling to her knees on the hallway carpet. I join her, wrapping my arms tightly around her. I don’t care if she tries to push me away this time. She’s going to hear me out.
    “Shhh,” I softly hum in her ear as I rub my hands up and down her back. Her whole body is shaking with sobs making me feel like even more of an asshole than I already do. “Will you please listen to what I have to say? You can’t go without hearing me out first.” I feel her nod against me and waste no time picking her up and carrying her into the apartment before she changes her mind. She’s scared, but I’m terrified. I’ve learned to deal with my choices, but I’m not sure Alex can.
    I remember the night I saw Bree pretty clearly, but I’m not sure how Alex is going to react when I explain it to her.
    It was the night she left me in my bed with nothing but a note to explain where she went.

    I feel as though my heart’s been ripped from my chest and torn into a hundred pieces. How could she do this to me? How could she look me in the eyes and tell me she loves me, but then just leave and act like I meant nothing to her? Maybe I deserve it for opening myself up to someone. I’d locked my feelings up for so long that I didn’t think I would ever let anyone in. But she got me. I love that fucking girl so much, but I think maybe I don’t mean as much to her as she does to me.
    I went to her dorm this morning to see her, but all she did was rip my heart out even more. She was just as broken as I am about the whole thing; I could see it written all over her face, but she pushed me away even further. I went there to get her back, but when I left I wanted nothing to do with her. I never saw a day in my future without Alex since the day I asked her to be my girl, but at this point, she’s gone. There aren’t any words for the amount of pain I’m feeling in this moment.
    When I left her dorm room this morning, I couldn’t see straight. I felt numb and broken. I’d given my heart away to her, and for the last couple of months, she was my everything. I would do anything for her.
    Now, I’m in my empty apartment, lying in the bed we shared just last night. The silence is suffocating and my mind keeps wandering to every part of her. The way she said my name. The way her hands felt sliding over my stomach. The sweet smell of her hair that always tickled my nose. The taste of her tongue on mine. I still can’t believe that after everything we shared this weekend, what we did in my bed last night, she’d left me.
    Something was off yesterday when I watched her in her bedroom, staring out the window. The night before...hell, the whole weekend was pretty damn perfect. But that morning something changed, and I wish I knew what it was. She told me there was someone else, but I don’t believe her. Not in my heart, anyway. Why would she lie to me? I never felt wanted when I was growing up, and I guess it’s too much to think someone would want me at this moment. I think maybe I don’t deserve a girl like her. Maybe I don’t deserve happiness at all.
    I can’t sit in the apartment anymore. There are too many memories of us. I see her in every room, every corner, and every doorway. It makes me feel like I can’t breathe. I need to forget for a while.
    I pick up my cell phone and call an old friend. “Hey, man. It’s Dane. What are you up to tonight?”
    “Dane? Fuck, I didn’t think I would ever hear from you again,” Gabe says. I can hear laughter in his voice.
    “Shit changes. Where you at?” I’m impatient. I need to get the fuck out of my apartment.
    “My place. You coming