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it must be about four months ago, before the tour started. We were just friends.”
He lifted an eyebrow, “You can be honest with me, Romeo. I’m not going to judge you.”
I ignored the faint stutter in my heart when he settled back beside me and placed his hand softly on my knee.
“No, we were. Admittedly at first we weren’t. She… uhh, well she knew what I liked, and she was discreet but we developed a friendship. I’ve known her for about three years. Fuck!”
I turned away from him, not allowing him to see the tears pool. I wasn’t a pussy, but fuck I’d just lost one of my best friends, Ink was leaving me, even the band was getting me down, controlling everything in my life. Everything was a fucking nightmare and I had just about come to my limit.
“Hey,” he whispered.
“Don’t!” I shook my head, lifting up a hand as I moved across the room. “Don’t confuse this. You lied to me.”
“I didn’t lie to you, Romeo.” He stalked the room swiftly, his large strides eating up the distance between us. I stiffened when he slid his fingers into my hair and cupped my head almost angrily, turning me until I was looking at him. “Have you seen anything in the paper about our night together? Or anywhere for that matter. I didn’t sleep with you for a story, I slept with you because I wanted to fuck you, sink my cock deep inside you because I like you. Is that so hard to accept?”
“It’s all just a fucking mess. Penny, you, Zoe…”
“Zoe?”
I shook my head and turned to the window. “I just can’t… do this…”
“This?” he scoffed. “What exactly do you think this is?”
I swallowed my nerve, hating the way my heart clenched and my balls constricted every time he touched me. “This, me and you. I am not gay, Nick.”
He stared at me, a small smile trying to break free. “Uh-huh.”
“I’m not! I’m in love with a woman damn it!”
His eyes widened and I didn’t miss the flash of hurt, or maybe it was anger, but there was definitely something in his gaze as he fixed it on me and took a step closer. “Who is she?”
“It doesn’t matter.” I sighed, dropping my eyes. “I can never be what she needs… as you can gather from the other night.”
I stepped back quickly, the glass from the window slapping my spine harshly, when he moved further towards me. “And does she know you’re bi?”
His question hurt, it shouldn’t but my guilt over Zoe was too much for my brain to cope with, my stomach twisting angrily at how much I had hurt her. It was easy to blame her for where our relationship had gone wrong when she had gotten pregnant, but the truth was, it was all my fault and up until now it had been the easiest way to cope with losing her, for the pain in both of us.
“I hurt her so much,” I confessed suddenly, his angry eyes now softening on me when he witnessed my anguish. “Fuck, I even blamed her for things falling apart between us but the truth is…”
“The truth is you need more than her?”
The truth hurt and I nodded, a choked sound ripping through my chest. “Yes.”
HIS DISTRESS HURT me, I didn’t know why, his relationship with this woman was nothing to do with me, and truth be told, I wasn’t sure I even wanted to know. The slash of pain inside me when he had said he was in love with a woman confused me, we’d slept together once for Christ’s sake, so why his confession hurt, I had no idea.
His eyes held mine and for a moment I fought over whether to just walk away. I’d never wanted anyone like I did Romeo. He was stunning, his thick but short hair perfect for my fist to grip, his piercing blue eyes relayed to me everything he was feeling. He had the most perfect body I had ever seen, his trim but firm physique was fucking beautiful.
I understood his need for privacy, his sexual preferences were no one’s business but his own. I had struggled with my own at first, the anguish over what my friends and family would think of me being
He lifted an eyebrow, “You can be honest with me, Romeo. I’m not going to judge you.”
I ignored the faint stutter in my heart when he settled back beside me and placed his hand softly on my knee.
“No, we were. Admittedly at first we weren’t. She… uhh, well she knew what I liked, and she was discreet but we developed a friendship. I’ve known her for about three years. Fuck!”
I turned away from him, not allowing him to see the tears pool. I wasn’t a pussy, but fuck I’d just lost one of my best friends, Ink was leaving me, even the band was getting me down, controlling everything in my life. Everything was a fucking nightmare and I had just about come to my limit.
“Hey,” he whispered.
“Don’t!” I shook my head, lifting up a hand as I moved across the room. “Don’t confuse this. You lied to me.”
“I didn’t lie to you, Romeo.” He stalked the room swiftly, his large strides eating up the distance between us. I stiffened when he slid his fingers into my hair and cupped my head almost angrily, turning me until I was looking at him. “Have you seen anything in the paper about our night together? Or anywhere for that matter. I didn’t sleep with you for a story, I slept with you because I wanted to fuck you, sink my cock deep inside you because I like you. Is that so hard to accept?”
“It’s all just a fucking mess. Penny, you, Zoe…”
“Zoe?”
I shook my head and turned to the window. “I just can’t… do this…”
“This?” he scoffed. “What exactly do you think this is?”
I swallowed my nerve, hating the way my heart clenched and my balls constricted every time he touched me. “This, me and you. I am not gay, Nick.”
He stared at me, a small smile trying to break free. “Uh-huh.”
“I’m not! I’m in love with a woman damn it!”
His eyes widened and I didn’t miss the flash of hurt, or maybe it was anger, but there was definitely something in his gaze as he fixed it on me and took a step closer. “Who is she?”
“It doesn’t matter.” I sighed, dropping my eyes. “I can never be what she needs… as you can gather from the other night.”
I stepped back quickly, the glass from the window slapping my spine harshly, when he moved further towards me. “And does she know you’re bi?”
His question hurt, it shouldn’t but my guilt over Zoe was too much for my brain to cope with, my stomach twisting angrily at how much I had hurt her. It was easy to blame her for where our relationship had gone wrong when she had gotten pregnant, but the truth was, it was all my fault and up until now it had been the easiest way to cope with losing her, for the pain in both of us.
“I hurt her so much,” I confessed suddenly, his angry eyes now softening on me when he witnessed my anguish. “Fuck, I even blamed her for things falling apart between us but the truth is…”
“The truth is you need more than her?”
The truth hurt and I nodded, a choked sound ripping through my chest. “Yes.”
HIS DISTRESS HURT me, I didn’t know why, his relationship with this woman was nothing to do with me, and truth be told, I wasn’t sure I even wanted to know. The slash of pain inside me when he had said he was in love with a woman confused me, we’d slept together once for Christ’s sake, so why his confession hurt, I had no idea.
His eyes held mine and for a moment I fought over whether to just walk away. I’d never wanted anyone like I did Romeo. He was stunning, his thick but short hair perfect for my fist to grip, his piercing blue eyes relayed to me everything he was feeling. He had the most perfect body I had ever seen, his trim but firm physique was fucking beautiful.
I understood his need for privacy, his sexual preferences were no one’s business but his own. I had struggled with my own at first, the anguish over what my friends and family would think of me being
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